Desiderium

Everynight I find a way
While my mind slowly decays
To remind myself that I won't ever be in the right place
It's such a shame
What a waste
Always wishing I could carve up my own face

Ok I got it now
I'll just keep on following the plan and hope it works out
Yea I know that you are something that I cannot live without
So I wanna ask you this because my mind so full of doubt

Would you still love me
If I gave up hoping
Cus the darkness in my head
Won't go to rest
Replaced by a memory
This wasn't the ending
That I had in my mind
When I looked into your eyes
For the first time

And now my arms are filled with scars
They took my only reason to survive
Helpless I claw at the marks
They took away the light

Now I'm begging them to take my life

Everyday I fall further and further away
Whyyyy
Save me from myself

Is it too late for me now
Because my minds been broken down
And I don't know how to go on
When youre not around
But I'll keep on trying
While I keep on dying
Though I know that I can't escape it
Told you I'd do anything
But I can't feel a thing
No I cant feel a thing

Would you still love me
If I gave up hoping
Cus the darkness in my head
Won't go to rest
Replaced by a memory
This wasn't the ending
That I had in my mind
When I looked into your eyes
For the first time