I Can Explain

Ahemmm
Where's my cigarette?
Okay, let's go

Tell me what you want, my feelings never gonna change
I'm throwing rocks right at your window and I'm standing in the rain
Putting my heart in your hands was the worst choice I ever made
And if I really think about it I get overwhelmed with shame

And if you think I'm guilty of a hundred-thousand reasons
Maybe if you'd understand every card that I've been dealt
You know that I'm the kind of person always picking up pieces
After every situation always fucking goes to hell

And if you call me on the phone, usually I never pick it up
So leave a message at the tone, it's probably you cursing me out
And it's okay, because I'ma add that to my fucking instrumental
And turn your words into my music, it's like you're hopping on the beat

And all those worthless conversations we would work up to the surface
I felt so empty with no purpose, empty blessings, many curses
I should've been more patient and assessed my situation
But I couldn't understand it any better, let me face it

Fuck this humanity
It's an endless infinity
Just wanna kick back, relax
Chill at home with my family

I can see what you're doing
I'm pulling up in a minute
Whip around in the parking lot
My head's fucking spinning

And I would never wife you up because I heard your cooking sucks
And I'm not trying to be offensive but I think I heard enough
Of all your talking it's annoying, do you ever shut the fuck up
Can you call a fucking uber how much longer till they pick you up

Sometimes, I remain insecure
My codependency has lead straight right back to her
And I know that's kinda personal to say into this music
But I can't just let it go because my thoughts get so intrusive

So baby, don't accuse me
You're lying through your teeth, telling your friends I was abusive
You're a pathological liar, girl why do you do this
When I catch you slipping, I'm not showing sympathy to you bitch

I would fuck it up again
I don't really think I know any better than him
If I get fucking angry, pop a percy 30, and then I count to ten
And make my ass end up back in the rehab once again