In My Head

Hey
In case nobody's asked you this today
Are you okay?
I'm fine
Are you really fine?
Uh, I don't know

I've been
Watching
All these thoughts that are in my head

Wondering
Waiting
Will it all come to an end?
All my life

Yeah
Life is a game
That everyone plays
And it's the same
You work through the days
Just to get paid
And try and save
Every penny you make
So that on Friday
You can drink and drink and drink and drink
And drink the whole weekend away

And I felt this concept was flawed
And I found it wrong
See honestly that's what I thought

So I didn't open a bottle
Or touch alcohol
I stayed far away from it all

Till I reached an age
Where I would be safe
From falling and getting a bit too addicted
And downing a bottle a day
Where I needed drinks
To stay alive
Or to stay alright
Or to say a hi
To the cute girl that I kinda liked with the beautiful smile and eyes
I didn't wanna be the kinda guy
That was constantly chasing the high
I did everything sober inside of my mind
No peer pressure these values were mine

And I'm filled with pride
I'm not dependant on wine
To have a conversation with friends
At dinner at night

So alcohol isn't my problem
I got a problem that's worse
And it really hurts
Well you could call it a problem
I'm gonna call it a curse

I've been doubting myself
I'm not proud of myself
Even when I do well
I look down on myself

I told my therapist what I've been feeling
She said for this there aren't any meds
It doesn't make sense
I need the help

Broke up with my ex while deeply in love and I told her that she deserved better
The truth is we're perfect but I don't feel worth it I guess that is why it upset her
I'll never find peace if I keep putting sheets between me and the people that matter
I know that I'll get it one day but I'm scared that I'll get it too late
And I think that I'm better off praying
Everyday when I'm

It's 4 o'clock and I've lost my top
And I've lost my thoughts
And I forgot the plot
And I'm waiting for just all of y'all
To be appalled by all the words on this song

I told you that this is my therapy
This is just how I feel
That is the truth
I'm way too cynical every week
Critical mentally
Of all that I do
Being dependent is something I'll never be
Won't go to extremities
Nothing related to booze or drugs can never ever be my remedy
I gotta stick to my values
And work on the way that I chat to
Myself in the mirror when I look into my eyes
I'll be back soon

I've been
Watching
All these thoughts that are in my head

Wondering
Waiting
Will it all come to an end?
All my life

Everyone struggles
That's part of the game
But with every challenge there is
There is also a chance to gain
We don't need bottles to be numbing the pain
We need each other to talk and help support through every day

Yeah I'm doubting myself
And I've found me some help
And this is my vow that I will work hard to get out of this mess
Now you do the same
You don't need an escape
Cuz whatever we face from hear on today
As long as we do it together
I promise you we'll find a way



Credits
Writer(s): Adil Kalyanpur
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