villain's lullaby

Said I'm praying for better days
How this life lead you to me and then lead you back away
Yeah I'm praying for better days and I'm praying for better ways
I'm praying for more discernment when I feel stuck up in my ways
I knew that you needed me, I could see it all in your face

I'm sorry I'm so distrustful
You could give me a whole cup full
And I'll still push you away
I'll still tell you I love you, don't know if I mean it anyway
I'm sorry I ain't shit, I left you in the shade
God know it haunt me everyday

I learned from my daddy, so I thought it was okay
God, just open the heaven gates I need you right here in my brace
I grew up so damn fucked up, is you gonna love me anyway?
That's selfish of me to ask but I would love you just the same
Said I make you feel insane
Drive each other to hell and then we back in each other face
Our kisses feel like portals, wanna kiss you in the rain
When I kiss you I feel no pain
Is the lack of physical touch supposed to make me feel insane?
Is our love supposed to feel like the devil got us on a chain?
Man, I'll love you anyway
Said I'll love you anyway
Man, this shit is so damn fucked up
Why I make you run away?
Why I let you feel that pain?
You was the only one keeping me sane

I know this shit sound backwards
Ain't that what love is anyway?
Don't care that our love is toxic
I'll pick you any day
Least you keep me on the edge
Think I'm addicted to the pain
I think I hate feeling sane
Oh man, I rather be insane
Yeah, I rather be insane
The love I desire's out of reach so I rather stay
Got me stuck up in a trance
I know love don't feel this way
Don't want love that come with pain
Knowing this shit is karmic, telling myself that we twin flames
Easy to be delusional to the pain 'cause it feel so great
Back to square one, with all the fighting and the pain
Forget you did me this way, shit repressed up in my brain
When it's meant, you feel it in your veins
And with you I only feel pain
Don't you speak my name in vain
Start making money off this pain
You say I don't love you like I say
I think my love for you has changed
Think I love just being insane
Love when you love me anyway

Think I rather be insane



Credits
Writer(s): Amayajane Chavez
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