Not Alright

I am taking pills, still hard to sleep
Life hurt so much, like a Heart disease
Laugh vanishes when I Try to cease
Trapped in the land of Fantasies
I'm telling myself to Not To quit
Pain and agony is All i See
My past looks like a Horror Scene ene
But don't know what to Do now honestly
I can feel the demons They are closing in
They are tightening the Grip on my neck
Now better go get me a Physciartist
Coz lately I'm feeling Physchiartic
Taking to myself, smiling In the dark
Calling all my friends, Saying to them
I am not good
Save me from this hell
Any suggestions? any Medicines?
Let me know goonna Grab them
How to do this now? all The possible doors
Are Closing now
All my hope is now taken To the cleaners
Tuning into meance
Showing faces to the People that i love
Hope they understand,I Am not alright
No I am not alright, I am Under pressure
I am on depression Every Session
I feel this tension
Rapkid we shouldn't lose This now
Put your make up and Game face on
Mic check, mic check, How's the sound?
It's almost time now, Where's the crowd?
Then I realized I am Still In home
Imaginary crowd Feeling Them
Performing raps I am killing them
Paying homage to Eminem
No stoping this till my Maranam

Ethaiyum thangidum Idhaiyaathal
Ithaiyum thangida Mudiyaatha
Suterithidum antha Nerupinilum
Velichangal kedaikum Theriyatha
Ethaiyum thangidum Idhaiyathal
Ithaiyum thangida Mudiyatha
Suterithidum antha Nerupinilum
Velichangal kedaikum Theriyatha

Let's count the days, I've Been feeling bad
That's seven days in a Week, three hundred and sixty-five in a year
Then muliply that by twenty-three
That's my whole life damn
I thought of suicide, now I cringe about it
I wrote a song to sing About it
When other people say They have a problem
Often times, I smile about Them
Coz I know, I went a mile Above them
With every window of opportunity closes
The dream keeps on crumbling into pieces
I am running out of Resources
That's the time these Demon rises
They want me broken
They want me shattered
They want me battered
They want me crying
It's a very good try, but I Am immortal
You can wn few fights, But not the battle
I wanna get my sister Married in a nice place
Where she finds peace
Where she feels so Precious
Her life filled with Freshness, but for long Time I know that
She deals with these Demons
On a every day basis So She thinks she can never Make it
Please it stop it
If I was you I would feel the same
But I promise you. We can heal this pain
It was always you that I looked upto
So wipe those tears and Get back
Incoming the brighter Days
I am Waiting for that one Moment
To see you in that "bridal Dress"
Glowing make up and a Smiley face
When I hand you over to Your better half
That the moment rapkid In his whole life have Been waiting for
So hold On tight It's goona be Alright