If It Hurt You so Bad

It was a bright Fall day, last week of September
You wore white and I wore a smile
The vows, we swore to keep them forever
But for you that only lasted awhile

Now, I know my job had carried us away
But I never thought you'd be the kind to roam
Even though you had strayed, I decided to stay
Finding work that brought us closer to home

But shame on me for putting that blame on me
Now I've found you've lit another old flame
Well, it ain't like the first time, there won't be a next time
Keep the house but lose my last name

I remember the night you begged for forgiveness
Every word, every tear that was shed
Blinded by love, like a fool I believe it
As you laid there and lied on our bed

You said, it's a one-time mistake
A moment of weakness
And it kills you to bring me such pain
But if it hurt you so bad, why the hell'd you do it again

Now, I don't know if you stopped
When you said that it ended
Or if you just found better ways to hide
My mind fills with doubt
And I grow apprehensive
Wondering what more you kept out of sight

But shame on me for putting that blame on me
Now I've found you've lit another old flame
No, it ain't like the first time, this time's the last
I'm done losing, done playing your game

I remember the night you begged for forgiveness
Every word, every tear that was shed
Blinded by love, like a fool I believe it
As you laid there and lied on our bed

You said, it's a one-time mistake
A moment of weakness
And it kills you to bring me such pain
But if it hurt you so bad, why the hell'd you do it again

Oh, if it hurt you so bad, why the hell'd you do it again