Unlearning Perfection

I've spent many years of my life
Tryin' to fill up the vases
For what I'm meant to be

It's a thin line to straddle
When they tell you
There is nothing you can't do
And you try too

You try to do it all
You try and you succeed
You do it all again
Until you're burnt out and in tears

Unlearning perfection
The patterns and lectures
Sleepless nights and busy days
Of locking me away

Never learned to take a break
Never learned to prioritize my sleep
Yeah, this is true

Never saw the signs that said
"Maybe that's enough"
There were things to do
And I had to 'em right

'Cause when you try to do it all
Sometimes you will succeed
And you'll do it all again
Until you're burnt out and in tears

Unlearning perfection
The patterns and lectures
Sleepless nights and busy days
Of locking me away

I tried to be the very best
I couldn't fail a single test
But when the deals were done
I was alone

All alone in a room without windows
All my friends had already
Gone out to have some fun
While I sit here tryin' to tick all the boxes
For the things that I should be
And the ways to be perceived

I don't wanna be the number one
I don't wanna be the center of it
I don't wanna be the number one
I just wanna lay down on my bed
I don't wanna be the number one
Not anymore