Resilience

Seen a lot a thangs in the struggle,
It done made me turn cold, but you know imma never fold
Felt a lotta pain in the struggle,
Made my heart beat slow, had to learn how to let it go
Tears they drip like rain making puddles,
I'm just trying not to slip, don't hold back gotta let it flow
I done heard they drug name through the rubble,
It done made me go insane this is something they ain't ready for
Spirit talking and it tell me I should let it go
All these voices in my head tend to egg me on
Tired of the disrespect I might let it blow
Heart be drumming in my chest thats a better song
I been stumbling down this road I been heading on
I been tryna chase a check but I peddle slow
Baby imma keep on chasing til I'm dead and gone
Being regular is something I cant settle for
Searching in the dark I was just tryna find the meaning
Get to looking in my heart and started battling my demons
Conflicted in my mind was tryna find what I believe in
In a chase a race through time I started rhyming for a reason
Heart is in the dark but know my soul is in the light
Illuminated through the night and-they-just-gone fight for my allegiance
Thats what cause the fright like every night when I been dreaming
I got use to all this fighting I been fighting since I'se teething
I know time is just a sequence thats what the pain would teach me
Time is in the mind cant waste my time or time gone leave me
It's time to start the grind I find my light and let it shine
Embrace the darkness in my mind when I'm reminded times ain't easy
Said I'll let it shine just like a diamond peep the vvs
Greatness is who he be, don't care if you believe me
I know my people need me, shout out to my Geechees
In the gutter with my Gullahs, mother keep me

I was really on my way
Nowadays it seems I'm MIA
Almost there but still I run away
Started chilling in a daze
Smoking all my feeling in a haze
Tryna lock my feelings in a cage
I was really in a rage
Guess I'm just a product of my age
Tryna find some healing from the pain
Need a Milly in the safe
Think I need a billy in the bank
Still depressed but least I'm chillin in a Wraith
Tryna run it up, ain't no questioning my heart I been showing love
Yet I'm spending all my nights feeling lonely
I was chilling in the dark no one showing up
Crying out that I just need someone to (up)hold me
Plenty people use to tell me they got love for me
Had to realize that your love is what I don't need
I was sending out my prayers I was standing at the alter
Had me feeling like god got cold feet

Had me feeling ignorant, Im Feeling really villainous
Im Feeling really militant, gone Do that with vigilance
The things that I been dealing with gone Do that with diligence
Don't care about-yo opinions Give a mmm bout yo forgiveness
I got a couple memories bout the things i been resenting I been
Smoking the gas its helping to not remember it
Running from my past tryna escape my bad decisions it
Might Help me to relax i know this high is not definitive
Its dissonant can hear my thoughts its hissing with a viciousness
Bout vengeance heart knocking its the devil when he visiting
I had a dream and it just turned into a visions
So I just chase it with precision when-I-was-a kid I couldn't envision this
I know that chasing this paper is ignorant
The dream invades my mind and all my thoughts I cant get rid of
So know Im never giving in I got too much resilience

So I gotta do it big for the one time
If I never do it big then I'll never know
How it feels if id ever catch the sunshine
If I ever get it know that I ain't letting go
Shoot my shot gotta treat it like its crunch time
Tryna see how I respond when the pressure on
Hoping I can get it right maybe sometime
Until then I gotta make sure that I'm ready for
Tryna let my light glow like the sun shine
But lately my heart been froze like the eskimo
Tryna recreate the feeling when I use to have a dream
I wishing on a star with no telescope
Start to realize that theres some things that I can't take with me
Lately I been tryna learn how to just let it go
Cause I'm tryna be the sun
Told my mama I'm the one
So theres nothing else a nigga gonna settle for, SK