Rapture Chaser

Watch your friend baptize her daughter in the river
And talk amongst themselves of what was lost in the flood
You're sitting barefoot on the porch of your parent's ruined doorstep
Rag up to your nose holding back the blood

Eight years away to come home to this
Getting smashed up in the basement
In the silence there you thought
You might have lost your chance at heaven

But if everyone's gone in rapture
Would you want to get better?

Had dreams of living in New York like one of the skinny ones
But you pawned a few of them off and met a man out west
Now your pale skin catches fire no matter how deep you feel buried
And that hatred in the mirror you can't express

Now there are wrinkles on your forehead and the city is too expensive
You hear everyone laughing like you're still that awkward kid

If everyone's gone in rapture
Why don't you want to get better?
Your heart will never be full, so don't waste your grief on fools

The pain is everywhere if you go looking
The pain is everywhere saying "come find me."
The pain is everywhere, so why are you searching?
The pain is everywhere

If everyone's gone in rapture
Why don't you want to get better?
Your heart will never be full, so don't waste your grief on fools

If everyone's gone in rapture
Why don't you want to get better?

If everyone's gone in rapture
Why don't you want to get better?

And everyone's gone in the rapture
But you didn't want to get better