Too many times

There's so many times that I, that I have lost my mind
Whoever wonders that I, can't ask, but I can't lie
I've tried saving my face, but not sure that's what I wanted
No, I, oh, I, I thought I did before

This life ain't what you asked as I thought out loud
I travelled far for this, do you wonder why I still drown?
And I hold my breath when I take a chance, you're too used to this now
When there's no air left, well, who's pulling me up? Mm

I could tell that I'm missed, I'm surely damned
But that won't ever stop me
I have always had this crown, but they can only taste it now
I could tell in the midst, I'm surely down
But that won't ever stop me
I have always had this crown, but they can only taste it now

What you say, this ain't right, this went left
Coming back home, I ain't got time for this
Who you love, who you blame, who asked for this?
When did you make up your mind that I had time for this?

Been too long, two months, but now I called you up
Yeah, you were there, but you knew nothing about me
How'd you learn if you don't hear the words I said?
Maybe you could feel it through my pain instead

I could tell that I'm missed, I'm surely damned
But that won't ever stop me
I have always had this crown, but they can only taste it now
I could tell in the midst, I'm surely down
But that won't ever stop me
I have always had this crown, but they can only taste it now