Curse

I try to think my patience keeps myself in line
So I'm getting more anxious as it's getting tried
Like sometimes I feel a victim to this universe
Until I realize that only makes it worse

Is it obvious
I'm not the optimist
You used to know
I guess I thought the bar wasn't as low
It it obvious
I lack the confidence
That I rehearsed
I think that self awareness is a curse

And I know it sounds so pessimistic
But I'm only trying to be realistic
When I think about my own existence
I kinda wish I couldn't comprehend it

I try to think that someday I'll accept my faults
Or maybe I could even stop caring at all
'Cause pressure only matters if you pay it mind
And my life won't get better 'til I make it mine

Is it obvious
I'm not the optimist
You used to know
I guess I thought the bar wasn't as low
It it obvious
I lack the confidence
That I rehearsed
I think that self awareness is a curse

And I know it sounds so pessimistic
But I'm only trying to be realistic
When I think about my own existence
I kinda wish I couldn't comprehend it

Is it obvious
Is it obvious
'Cause no offense
But it's common sense
That consciousness
Is the cause of a stress
And I wish we all knew less

Is it obvious
Is it obvious
When looking where the problem is
That consciousness
Is complicit
And ignorance is bliss

And I hate to be so pessimistic
Eve, I find it such a dense decision
That you'd eat the only thing forbidden
Now I mourn the lack of shame we lived in

And I know it sounds so pessimistic
But I'm only trying to be realistic
When I think about my own existence
I kinda wish I couldn't comprehend it