Traumatized

I said Im traumatized got trauma trauma
Said Im traumatized got trauma trauma
Said Im traumatized
Wanna quit but I keep going
Gotta make it for my momma
Just got the call brodie life was cut short
Nah he aint dead but he lost his life in court
He getting seven to 15 that's how it go up in New York
All my brothers getting football numbers
And we aint even play a sport
Yeah I must admit Im traumatized From These homicides
Wanna cry but I harmonize the pain inside
Coming up from nothing it be compromised
If you survive
It's hard to keep your head above the water
When you drown inside

Only person in my circle who ain't gotta felony
Only person in this room without a Mil
Been hanging with celebrities
Bro on camera for a body
They say he killed him allegedly
Got pain and anger built inside turn it to a melody
Kiing got a son on the way
Now I gotta make it desperately
Got people depending that I make it
I admit it.s stressing me
Sometimes it don.t feel good that I'm bout to make it
Cuz everybody dead locked in Prison or they dead to me
Heavy on the R
Screaming free the Starrs
Buddy ratted on my brother
For a get out of jail free card
Free Los E and Eb put your name in every bar
Just bought a new whip I can't post it
Just because of who we are
W+e really heavy on the R
Screaming free the Starrs
Was in them Streets Running wild Youngin really had it hard
Was a Street Runner changed my ways
My Redemption made it far
Yeah so we heavy on the R

I said Im traumatized got trauma trauma
Said Im traumatized got trauma trauma
Said Im traumatized
Wanna quit but I keep going
Gotta make it for my momma
Yeah I must admit Im traumatized From These homicides
Wanna cry but I harmonize the pain inside
Coming up from nothing it be compromised
If you survive
It's hard to keep your head above the water
When you drown inside

I'm traumatized from all this pain Cuz this shit just never change
All the niggas around me done turned
And went against the grain
And it's crazy cuz I gave a lot of you niggas names
And all of you niggas changed
But I guess its apart of the game
I be in my feelings so I gotta roll up
I do too much thinking so Im not sober
Shit be wild shit be wicked always got my pole tucked
But when I hoped in the trenches Like I knew what it was
I knew what would come
I could only blame myself for shit that I had done
I know some niggas locked and Other niggas on the run
Niggas toting chops and putting switches on they guns
Told my youngins to stay out the streets
Cuz this shit aint no fun
Aint never have no pops so I aint get that one on one
Had nothing in my pocket found a way to get it done
And now Ima stay smiling cuz a young nigga done won

I said Im traumatized got trauma trauma
Said Im traumatized got trauma trauma
Said Im traumatized
Wanna quit but I keep going
Gotta make it for my momma
Yeah I must admit Im traumatized From These homicides
Wanna cry but I harmonize the pain inside
Coming up from nothing it be compromised
If you survive
It's hard to keep your head above the water
When you drown inside