No Tomorrow

I was just remembering my glory days
And how your smiles were in my eyes
Getting dizzy smoking fifty cigarettes and thinking how
If they hated me at least I'd have a reason to die
These days are supposed to be better
Yet I'm still tasting bitter ecstasy
Praying to a four-leaf clover
I keep hearing I should give it a try, but nothing lasts forever
So why even fucking bother?
6 AM baby, it's getting kinda cold
I wish I knew a couple hours ago when to fold
I'm in an empty room, lonely but not alone
With me I got my demons laughing at me 'cause I'm dumb
Wake up at 4 PM, procrastinate in bed
Only get up 'cause guilt is eating the brains in my head
Get on a call with friends, to fill and empty desk
There goes another day of counting seconds 'till I'm dead
And I just keep it there
'Cause this is only fair
No need to pay the bill
I like the way I feel
Oh yeah I know I'm cheesy
Now fuck you, take it easy
'Cause I just wanna stay and drink the pain away

And I just keep it there
'Cause this is only fair
No need to pay the bill
I like the way I feel
Oh yeah I know I'm cheesy
Now fuck you, take it easy
'Cause I just wanna stay and drink the pain away

I dream about your kiss
And just how much I miss to closely hold someone
The poetry of love
No matter how hard I try to be happy, to fly
I just cannot succeed, I'm failing miserably
And I just keep it there
And let it cut my chest
Ripping out my heart, killing me stab by stab
When will the voices stop calling me names
Oh god, I'm fucking sick of this shit
I don't even know why I pretend to be sane
C'mon, look at the mess I am
And I just keep it there
'Cause this is only fair
No need to pay the bill
I like the way I feel
Oh yeah I know I'm cheesy
Now fuck you, take it easy
'Cause I just wanna stay and drink the pain away

And I just keep it there
'Cause this is only fair
No need to pay the bill
I like the way I feel
Oh yeah I know I'm cheesy
Now fuck you, take it easy
'Cause I just wanna stay and drink the pain away

I really wanna care, but sadly I just can't
It's hard to do when you're the monster
I ran out of pills to take, the sun I need is fake
Night terrors with a side of panic
Now, realization hit and finally I see
My life is one big lie and all along I was the villain
I'm feeling your grinning in the backseat of my mind I hear you laugh
You bet your ass I'm overthinking
Sincerely I have absolutely no idea how long I've got
A couple days, weeks perhaps, months
I'm not even remotely tryin' to figure it out
To be honest I'm willing to just live with the doubt
Of when things will finally go south and collapse
But until then, let me live inside my dreams
Those sweet dreams of when I did nothing but look at memes
Play games with no teams
No enemies to sink your boat
Well, maybe one, just me
Figuring out when to finally slice my throat
And I just keep it there
'Cause this is only fair
No need to pay the bill
I like the way I feel
Oh yeah I know I'm cheesy
Now fuck you, take it easy
'Cause I just wanna stay and drink the pain away

And I just keep it there
'Cause this is only fair
No need to pay the bill
I like the way I feel
Oh yeah I know I'm cheesy
Now fuck you, take it easy
'Cause I just wanna stay and drink the pain away