Hate You

It's killing me inside
Can't go down this path again
No-one here to guide me through
One wrong turn could spiral and crash again

I feel I have to
Somehow just show you
I know that I can't be saved
But when
You try and break through
I start to hate you
You don't know that I can't change

It's killing me inside
Need to save you from yourself
If my eyes aren't good, to see you
Maybe it's too late to help

I felt I had to
Somehow just show you
That you could somehow be saved
But when
I tried to break through
You never came to
And I just can't seem to change
Or let it go

If I had a little longer
Cant you see, it would always be this way
Would you have, would you have let, let me just push through
No you can't push through
Was I just never good enough, for you
Please try to see through my eyes for once
Oh please tell me that your pain was not my fault
Just know that throughout everything, its not your fault

I feel I have to
I felt I had to
Somehow just show you
Somehow just show you
I know that I can't be saved
That you could somehow be saved
But when
But when
You try and break through
I tried to break through
I start to hate you
You never came to
You don't know that I can't change
And I just can't seem to change
Now that I know that
This will never last
I hope that you don't hate me
Knowing
Demons of your past
It's not your fault that
I couldn't live up to what
You needed