serpents (feat. Lil Rocca)

I
Been wondering
What if I just stayed happy with my place?
What if I just laid snapping out my brain?
What if I just prayed after every mistake?
Maybe then I'd find some clarity
Maybe then my life would be more heavenly
Maybe then I'd look less despairingly
What's the price of freedom?
A life of always giving
Never sinning with intention
I've been sitting back in place on my faith
Now I've had to give away these things
That God gave me cause I'm losing my vision
And taking my calling as a joke
I'm so sorry that I strayed off of course I knew better for sure
But I started feeling guilt like Adam and Eve
I thought the answer was to flee
But what a stupid thought
Eight billion people in the world
But You got Your eyes on us each individually?
I pray You heal these weak pieces in me again
But last time I wasn't even all there
I still let fear reside in past memories that keep me gasping, barely breathing
Now people are fleeing
Cause I'm figuring out how to grieve without ever reaching my hand out
Now I gotta ask how to do it with two therapists
God this is hitting deep
But I know You're trying to pull me higher
Like a choir note
For Your righteous glory
But I'm honestly feeling buried
Sinking in these dreams
Life is blurry
I've gotta hurry cause I'm worried I'll be late
Now I've been losing my mind to the lust and serpents
That's a battle that'll cost me trust and purpose
Yeah
Yeah
That's a battle that'll cost me trust and purpose

I
Been blind for awhile now, looking at the serpents slithering across my mind
I guess we don't see the same
Cause I know if it was an eye for an eye
Then we'd both be blind
Blinded by the pride, I'm just buying time
Said they with me, they ain't one of mine
They came to play
That's why I know I, gotta open both of my eyes
They been creeping through the window, got my eyes open
Put my hands together, I'm praying, I'm hoping
That this all make sense some day
Got my boys and some patience
I know we're gonna get the plane off the runway
Takeoff
Never break off
And don't you make the coffin just yet
You try to put me in, I'll say no
Cause I got stuff to do unless God say so
And till then, I know them golden gates gonna stay gold
Say something to me fore it's too late
I know you been plotting on everyone that you hate
But it ain't worth the time, you gotta due date
I'll go get it myself, just you wait

I
Been blind for awhile now, looking at the serpents slithering across my mind
I guess we don't see the same
Cause I know if it was an eye for an eye
Then we'd both be blind
Blinded by the pride, I'm just buying time
Said they with me, they ain't one of mine
They came to play
That's why I know I, gotta open both of my eyes