Chasing Waves

Really I'm burnt out
Tired of holding in the hurt now
I've been pushing past the point of no return
And now I'm mapping out the worst routes
Carrying a burden pray it works out
Accomplishment never show face
I've been sitting on my hands, it's been a slow day
Got so many things I need to do
If I don't move, I hope it go away
I know that's not the case
I just built a foundation on quicksand
Trynna find that temporary fix and
Bandaids on broke bones like wristband
Bright ideas a stone's throw from this man, I'm just saying
It feels mindless, droning, scrolling
The focus relentless when I'm in my zone
And control ain't the omen I thought it was
Treading water, stay afloat, as the water rushes over us

It's just out of habit can't control it
Powerless to my whole motive
This new normal isn't how I want things
Still, I'm seeking change, procrastinating
Running wild, unmotivated, oh
Where'd I go wrong? Oh

Feel like reaching balance that I ain't seen
Since eighteen, I've been seeking all the same things
From daydreams in my mind, for safekeeping
I complain but stayed sleep, and lately
Going with the flow when the rapid change
Flooded with emotion how it activate me
Get washed up still seeking that happy place
Might have me crashing every wave before I catch a break

But I don't wanna crash, no
I've been chasing waves for the longest time
Don't know how I'm getting back though
Said I don't know, oh, I don't know
I don't wanna crash though
I don't wanna break, I see how that turn out, I know
Oh, I know

Well-intentioned with a work ethic to match
Anxiety trynna spark a fire inside me
Watching the embers burning quietly
It's always something that's gon' rain on your parade
Just trying me
I'm still looking for variety
Write "Dear diary,
Today I woke up, right?
Feeling tore up, from the sole up
Wasn't ready for close-up," like
The fear of failure had my back against the ropes
And I'm not Jimmy, raising hope
So why you think that I would show up? That's so unwise
It's almost comical
If I can't find it in my heart to laugh at my own pain, that's irresponsible
Given the option, I'll find a way to hurdle the obstacles
Where talking self-love might seem impossible
Can't contradict me
My days off shift confidence
Faults and false promises bottomless
But still can't sink me
And since we brushing up again
I think it's time that we threw caution to the wind and learn to swim

But I don't wanna crash, no
I've been chasing waves for the longest time
Don't know how I'm getting back though
Said I don't know, oh, I don't know
I don't wanna crash though
I don't wanna break, I see how that turn out, I know
Oh, I know

It's just out of habit can't control it
Powerless to my whole motive
This new normal isn't how I want things
Still, I'm seeking change, procrastinating
Running wild, unmotivated, oh
Where'd I go wrong? Oh



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Writer(s): Tatenda Ndlovu
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