Downhill

I wish you knew how I felt inside But you can't dissect my mind
We've been going at it like cats and dogs My anger gets too much
I black out and everything's a fog I'm yelling and hurting your feelings
How could I even play this game

I love you so much and you're starting not to believe me
Why do I fucking act this way
I'm grateful for you and everything you brought to my life
I've just been playing this game with my own emotions

I'm self-sabotaging, I've been ruining my fucking life
Ever since I put down the knife Another night I'm contemplating taking my life
The only reason I stay alive is you I'd hate the darkness without you
I hate the darkness anyways, I feel my days are limited

I'm fucking toxic, now you finally admit it Getting faded, the culprit, my manipulating
I'm not the same person you met two Aprils ago
I say something I don't mean I can feel your heartbreak in the silence
The silence before you get up and leave I just wanna let you know I'm hurting

I wish I could be perfect, but I'm far from it
And every time I say some shit I don't mean I wanna relapse
And stop being clean, cut my wrist and fucking bleed
This time I won't go to the ER I'll just let myself bleed till I start blacking out & I won't be able to breathe

But that's just the intrusive Thoughts starting to speak, I'll stay clean
But it doesn't stop the fact I'm making from making you hurt
The only thing appealing is getting high like the ceiling

Unless we could be together right now But you're mad and I get it
I'm self-sabotaging, I've been ruining my fucking life
Ever since I put down the knife Another night I'm contemplating taking my life
The only reason I stay alive is you I'm self-sabotaging, I've been ruining my fucking

life Ever since I put down the knife
Another night I'm contemplating taking my life
The only reason I stay alive is you



Credits
Writer(s): Griffin Seagle
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