Sick of My Anxiety

Dear Diary
I'm sick of my anxiety
Popping pills
That can kill
But the doctors keep
The doctors keep prescribing me
The doctors keep prescribing me

I've always been
Just a little bit more
Than just a little bit broken
And I'm hopin'
To show my power exists
Masochism is a prison that I'm livin in
And if I can't escape it then I'll fade into oblivion

I'm always trying
Just a little bit more
Than just a little bit harder
And I'm farther
Than i would like to admit
Closer to the shit conclusion
Never winning always losin
I'm abusing me
And maybe i don't wanna be fixed

Dear Diary
I'm tired of apologies
Popping pills
That can kill
But the zannies keep
The zannies keep reviving me
The zannies keep reviving me

I'm on guard
I built walls
To keep all
The people
That are fucking with me
Out of
The way cause
I'm sick of
The life I'm
Not living how I want

And I can't help but notice
That I'm focused on
Keeping my shoulders
Below the camera's focus
And i can't help but notice

Everybody's looking at me
And I can't breathe
While I'm trying to figure out
Which ones are friends
And which ones are enemies
That I gotta shake off
Just to get out
Of this endless pit
I'm an Abyss
I'd be remiss
If I didn't acknowledge that I'm sitting here just fucking begging for this

Dear Diary
I'm sick of my anxiety
Popping pills
That can kill
But the doctors keep
the doctors keep prescribing me
the doctors keep prescribing me

Dear Diary
I'm tired of apologies
Popping pills
That can kill
But the zannies keep
The zannies keep reviving me
The zannies keep reviving me

Poppin poppin pills
I want
I want to be mentally well
But
I don't wanna give up on all of the thrills
The shit that inspires me paying the bills
Like you
Like us
Like the trauma of love
And all of people who tell me
I'm never enough
I'm never enough

Poppin poppin pills
I want
I want to be mentally well
But
I don't wanna give up on all of the thrills
The shit that inspires me paying the bills
Like you
Like us
Like the trauma of love
And all of people who tell me
I'm never enough
I'm never enough



Credits
Writer(s): Aby Saint Stone, Ken Midas
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