Catharsis

Time hasn't moved in a while
My sister is the only thing that makes me smile
She says that I should move on, but
You know I can't

Saving my tears on a file
To show you the damage when you get hostile
And I, know that I should move on, but
I never can

And maybe if I was lucky
It would just hit me
Then I'd be alright, but
This keeps staying at the front of my mind

Destroyed myself to keep your wishes
You're scaring tactics never missed, and when you
Think about me like I know you do
Remember, I was close to you

Forcing me into a silence
My attitude was too much, but excuse his violence, I was
Threatened with an army
But I'm just one man

Gave you your friends
Is this how you thank me?
Faking content
Everything's how it should be
Now I'm a mess
Trying to comprehend

Though, maybe if I was different
You would've listened
Then I'd be alright, but
This keeps staying at the front of my mind

I was in a mental prison
It doesn't take some magic vision to see
How they broke me and how they made me blue
While I was also close to you

I felt like I was going crazy
For a year I questioned sanity and I don't
Wanna see you begging on your knees
Whenever you end up like me

So I try and try,
To distract myself
But I want an eye for an eye
Cause you put me through HELL
You made me lose my mind
And at the same time
I lost myself
But I still wish you well
But I still wish you well

Destroyed myself to keep your wishes
You're scaring tactics never missed, and when you
Think about me like I know you do
Remember, I was close to you

Destroyed myself (myself, myself)
I wish you hell (you hell, you hell)

And when you think about me like I know you do
Remember I was