In the Morning (feat. Just Mary)

Oh I hope I feel better in the morn'
It's all in my mind but I know
I can't call it too soon (soon)
When you feel like I do (I do)
So I hope I feel better in the morning (so much better)
Better in the morning (a whole lot better)
Yeah

As I race against my thoughts I see the finish line ahead
Gotta overcome my brain so I can take my ass to bed
I should be meditating, focusing on breathing, but instead
I text this girl apologies, for her to leave my ass on read
Oh fuck (damn), needed my guilty conscious lifted but no luck (man)
I know that what I did was years ago but so what (and?)
Cause it be the moments like these where I really feel the need
For me to decompress and breath, even if it only means
That I send a random sorry text to a lover from my teens
In hopes that I'm forgiven and she's wiped my record clean
I swear I checked the time not long ago and it said 10:03
So why the fuck my Apple Watch saying it's 10 to 3? (ten to three)
Don't know why I always feels like it's only me (only me)
Sometimes I feel like I'm losing control of me (control of me)
Can someone reel me back and get a hold of me
Can someone reel me back and get a hold of me
Please

Oh I hope I feel better in the morn'
It's all in my mind but I know (it's all in my mind)
I can't call it too soon (soon)
When you feel like I do (I do)
So I hope I feel better in the morning (so much better)
Better in the morning (a whole lot better)
Yeah

I try to focus on sobriety (sobriety)
But working all the time gives me anxiety,
Running the risk to build a business on sole propriety
The ones I ask for help, they either turned their backs or lied to me
Which makes me think I don't have what it takes (what it takes)
I dwell on all that I lack and mistakes
Could've been famous in 2016 if I committed
But you know I never listen when I tell myself to go and get it
So here I am, in bed since 9:05, with fears of working a 9-5
Praying my mother lives to see 95
Hoping I can give everyone I love a wonderful time
On this planet instead of just tryna survive,
Cause it's a scary world, it's a jungle outside
Could someone tell me everything will be just fine
Wish there was a way I could log out of my mind
Wish there was a way I could log out of my mind
I wish...

Oh I hope I feel better in the morn'
It's all in my mind but I know (it's all in my mind)
I can't call it too soon (soon)
When you feel like I do (I do, so I)
So I hope I feel better in the morning
Better in the morning

Many talks with that shower head when my head is racing
Anxiety plus depression, hard to tell which is different
Ganging on me, can't tell if this my initiation
Welcome to life, now rep that shit as you hit the pavement
Had to learn on my own, really without no guidance
Both parents had maps, shit it was misdirected
Lousy but loving, distant but something
For sure it built my character but made me lust for nothing
Half the time I don't know if I really wanna rap
Maybe I want some recognition so I don't feel like crap
Maybe I could be a med student, lawyer too
Maybe I'm watching too much Grey's and SVU
Could've made the NBA cause I could really shoot
Why I'm stressing bout ol' girl tryna be her boo
When she don't even give a fuck, my generation doomed
Empty bottles are frequent no matter day or weekend
Auntie says slow down you need both your kidneys
But see this pain I want drowned, somersault in the deep end
Is this a simulation? Will I lose my demons
I talk a lot about faith, will I end up cheating
Temptation is real, hormones are deceiving
A lot of questions, but barely any answers man
A lot of questions, but barely any answers man
Ignorance is bliss, I wish I had that back man