Regret

Regret
In my heart
Hit me like a thousand flying darts
Memories on my mind
The ghosts come out at night
Of all the things I never got to find

Regret
Always near
Get the hell out, no one needs you here
Nothing can be won
When all is said and done
So go away, you piece of shit, just run

I could've been someone
I could've known someone
I could've bust through that door
I could've met someone
I could've kissed someone
I could've missed someone
But you never made me do
The things that I needed
Were there chances I ceded?
The plans that I never made
Could I be completed?
The dance went unheeded
Maybe that's what I needed
But you left me high and dry
Just tell me why

Regret
I hate you
Your cruelty is that I needed you
But you showed up too late
I couldn't change my fate
Now, stuck in here, there's nothing I can do

Another lonely day
In this endless grey
Novel incompleteness
Just the price I pay
For my past mistakes?
Is it all it takes?
Are there seven weighted dice?
Or is it me to blame?
Was it just the same
For everyone
Until darkness came?
Oh, the words can maim
It's a ruthless game
I was taken by the night
No end in sight

Regret
I know you
You strike just when I least expect you to
But you're for real this time
This time I've got to climb
The hills I long have dreamed I'll make it through

You came into my life
Not a warning sign
Life was simple then
Now I'm born again
Once a theory
Now a prophecy
Never likely to come true
Once a theory
Now a prophecy
I just can't forget
Like the alphabet
Written in my mind
Not a warning sign
And it's all because of you
Regretful you

Regret
I know I tend to say
You only ever make everything worse
But feeling how I feel
Although it's not ideal
I should probably thank you even though it hurts

Regret
You changed my life
You taught me things I always thought I knew
But is it for the best?
Am I cursed or am I blessed?
The fact is that it hurts because of you

What you brought upon
Was a brand new dawn
An epiphany
A philosophy
That I will live by
'Cause I have to try
There is no other way
But my chance is gone
As I write this song
For so many things
Though not everything
Not an optimist
I'm an alchemist
At least that's how I feel
These wounds won't heal

Maybe I'll find it in the future
Maybe it's written in the stars
Maybe you'll make it all come true
I'll know exactly who you are
But it's not the same, it's not the same
The things I will have seen
I'm not a teen
Never was a teen
Never went out to see a movie
Nothing with anybody else
Never been to a house party
Barely spoken with my friends
Some of it I knew, some not so much
But all of it, I know now
I wanted it
I wanted it

All that wasted time
All that time was mine
Now I'm growing up
And I'm not strong enough
'Cause I never did
All the things they did
What a sad, pathetic fool
No, I don't mean that
But you do see that
This is terrible
For this place I'm in
Not three years ago
Not a year from now
Why now, why now, why now?

And the things they know
In the afterglow
Things I once shrugged off
Now I've lost my shot
Things I "didn't need"
What a goddamn deed
Maybe in another life
Regret, I blame you
But I still love you
All my wasted years
And my deepest fears
Breaking down in tears
As the dark haze clears
Maybe in another life
She'd be my wife

Regret
Silly things you make me say
Things you might bring back, that's what you do
Is it for the best?
Am I cursed or am I blessed?
The fact is that it hurts because of you