The Last Time

Tears in my eyes
Many many nights
I had to fight
Tears in my eyes
I've had to cry a thousand times
This will be my last time
Last time, last time
Feelings always run away
Sorry that I couldn't stay
With you
I couldn't stay with me
Wasn't meant to be
I've been going through it
I've been going through it
Doo doo doo uh yeah
This will be the last time
This will be the last time
Last time with you
Last time with me
I am set free

Dear Lexi, living in the summer of '04
Oh I wish I could tell you that you wouldn't have to go through things
That you didn't have to see what you're gonna see
And feel what you're gonna feel
That the biggest worry you'll ever have is
Watching your 6 year old brother at Watkins Park
Hoping he doesn't leave your sight
Even though mom or dad is there watching too
Someday you're going to reach a point where you feel like
You have to be the peacemaker, and unfortunately, at the cost of your own peace
You'll spend too much time secretly breaking on the inside
Wishing you felt comfortable enough to say how you really feel
I know you've done it a few times already, and I know you don't know better
You were never taught better
You're taught to obey which will turn into pressure
Which will turn into craving acceptance which turns into losing yourself
But not for long. What I want to tell you is that it's okay to feel
It's okay to feel sad or betrayed. It's okay to be angry with someone
And tell them and then keep your distance. It's okay if it hurts too much
It's okay if you're feeling any one of those things right now
You don't have to force yourself to be otherwise. Because that's not real
You can be that girl. Because that girl is you too
And she's still valuable whether people like her or not
Always remember that. Always remember that