Hide From This

The universe is unaccountable
I need to blame someone for this but I can't
Trying to reach for my peace of mind, need to find reasons for this but there aren't
none
It has to be a mistake, identity swap, some kind of con
Cause I can't wrap my head around the fact that you're just gone

I did that thing I said not to do, I went back through my chats with you
So many, so many, so many times just straight up didn't get back to you
We were chatting shit and it was meaningless but if I'd known then what I know now
I'd never miss another meme or text if I'd known they were gonna run out

Now I'm grasping, reaching, speechless, first round knockout, fully defeated
Asking forgiveness, thinking a million thoughts a second, can barely write a fucking sentence
How many times has my phone buzzed and I just wished it was you
Just wanna airplane mode and seclude myself so that's what I'm gonna do

I know it's pointless, so dumb, just wanting, to run
Hide from this like it's all a lie like you might in time open up your eyes
No one said this world was fair
Least of all me, I swear
If we get another chance on this earth, then I'll be that friend
that you deserve
I know it's pointless, so dumb, just wanting, to run
Hide from this like it's all a lie like you might in time open up your eyes
No one said this world was fair
Least of all me, I swear
If we get another chance on this earth, then I'll be that friend
that you deserve

Was so skint I missed your 30th
And it's stupid but that hurts
This month will be your 31st
But you'll miss that and that's worse
It's been a week and I can't believe it
Every now and then the grief hits
I sit down at my PC see your name on steam and it's real again
Group chat with people I barely know
Writing nice things about ya
But I muted that cos I couldn't cope
When I'm trying not to think about ya
It's relentless man I can't lie
I'm sure it'll calm over time but
Right now everything I do makes me think of you

I know it's pointless, so dumb, just wanting, to run
Hide from this like it's all a lie like you might in time open up your eyes
No one said this world was fair
Least of all me, I swear
If we get another chance on this earth, then I'll be that friend
that you deserve
I know it's pointless, so dumb, just wanting, to run
Hide from this like it's all a lie like you might in time open up your eyes
No one said this world was fair
Least of all me, I swear
If we get another chance on this earth, then I'll be that friend
that you deserve