collateral damage

Step foot inside of my mind
And you might just find
What's dead or alive
At almost all times
I wonder what's right
And ponder the sight
You lie and you sneak come take a quick peek
Clearly my naïveté has changed what I see
Between you and me now obviously our future is bleak
You lie and you sneak come take a quick peek
You belong with me, let's see what we'll be
When we're so happy let's give it more tries
The tears on my eyes make me feel alive

So don't get caught in the collision like collateral damage
Or I'll pop another perc into my adderall sandwich
Factors in my life I can barely just manage
But I'll get the gears spinning like an average mechanic
I been feeling botanic inside I'm feeling the panic
We gotta break off the static and hide the bones in the attic
Don't ask questions about I'm it sick of hearing the shouting
Whispering how I doubt it I wanna tell you about it
Paper crane in my name It's a shame to behave
In ways that make waves in the hearts the minds
It's time to rewind a breath take a sigh and take it inside
Reminisce on the piss we listing our wishes
Dreams coming true and nights getting vicious
Time to hit the town we're feeling malicious
Dodging all my calls and acting suspicious

Really hope I don't regret this, crossing doubts off my checklist
Waiting all night for your message, I been feeling all the essence
Of this brutal disconnection and the way you leave me guessing
I been tearing for confessions I'll just drown it out in sessions

So don't get caught in the collision like collateral damage
Or I'll pop another perc into my adderall sandwich
Factors in my life I can barely just manage
But I'll get the gears spinning like an average mechanic
I been feeling botanic inside I'm feeling the panic
We gotta break off the static and hide the bones in the attic
Don't ask questions about I'm it sick of hearing the shouting
Whispering how I doubt it I wanna tell you about it

Broken promises and hearts
You were lying from the start
Say you're sorry that's alright
For the first three times
It's a pattern in your mind
That our feelings can't align
I can't deal with all the lies
When you look me in the eyes
And I wish I was surprised
Saw it coming saw the signs
Wish I'd gotten out in time
Wish you were honest and you cared
Smell deception in the air
But I deserved it and it's fair
Now I can barely bear

The thought of losing you again
Compare us to now and then
Hoped we'd work out in the end
But you can't pick and choose
When it's a dupe or the truth
And your actions left me used
Now we can't talk without feuds
And I guess now that we're done
You can have him and your fun
We can argue for the last time
Return to your past life
Return to the fast times
I sit and count my half-life

Now I'm lonely In the darkness
I'm back to the apartment
When everything was fine
We were happy all the time
And we'd barely ever fight
And you called me every night
Told me everything was fine
But now everything's a lie
How'd everything change so quickly
You loved me infinitely
But now you're on the fence see
What you've done left me empty
I'm getting close don't tempt me

But I can still
Barely Bear the thought of losing you again
Compare us to now and then
Hoped we'd work out in the end
But you can't pick and choose
When it's a dupe or the truth
And your actions left me used
And we can't talk without feuds
But I guess now that we're done
You can have him and your fun
We can argue for the last time
Return to your past life
Return to the fast times
I sit and count my half-life