Et Cetera Et Cetera

You know
Sometimes you just need some silence around yourself
So that tum figure out kar paao
Ki tumhare dimag mein chal kya rha hai
Matlab, chal kya rha hai?
Kya baat dikkat de rahi hai
Aur saali itni dikkat de rahi hai
Ki uski wajah se tumhare duniya bhar ke kaam
Ruke hue hain
Tum duniya se hi alag ek kamre mein bandh hokar baith gaye ho
Tujhe pta hai pehle mujhe dar lagta tha ki main akela na reh jaaun
Like jab main kuch aise hi 10th-11th mein tha
Haan
Matlab aisa lagta tha ki akela na reh jaaun
Ab saala dar lagta hai ki kisi ke zyada nazdeek na aajaun
Kyunki agar kisi ke zyada nazdeek aakar
Uske baarein mein aur jaan loonga acche se
Toh uske bina reh nahi paaunga
Aur agar voh insaan at some point in my life nahi rha
Ya chhod ke chala gya toh uske bina reh nahi paaunga
Kyunki eventually matlab chhod ke toh jaana hi haina
Ek doosre ko ek na ek din hum sabne
Kyunki na mere khayal se matlab aisa mera maan na hai
Ki seventy five percent vaade na jhoothe dilaase hi hote hai
Jo ki hum saamne vaale ko nahi
Khud ko hi de rahe hote hain khud ko hi dhoka de rahe hote hain
Hum voh bolte haina forever vaali cheez
Na fam na there's no such thing as forever
Except me and her except me and her
Kuch movies hoti haina jo tum theatre mein dekhne jaate ho
And you know jab koi film khatam hoti hai and
Toh ek dum se you know lights on hoti hai and
You sitting on your seat and you watching end credits
And dheere dheere dheere dheere theatre khaali ho rha hai
Lekin, but you're just processing ki yeh maine kya dekh liya
You're just contemplating ki yeh maine kya dekh liya
What the fuck yeh kya yeh kya movie thi yeh maine kya dekh liya
Theatre dheere dheere khaali ho rha hai
Log exit gate se bahar nikal rahe hain and
You're just sitting on your seat and phir tum bhi bahar nikalte ho
Tum jaate ho tum exit gate se main gate tak jaate ho
And you still thinking about the movie
Tum main gate se gaadi mein baithte ho
You still thinking about the movie
Gaadi se ghar jaate ho
Poore raaste movie ke baarein mein sochte jaate ho
You enter your house you thinking about the movie
You having dinner you're thinking about the movie
Sone se pehle you're thinking about the movie
Kal subhah uthte hi you thinking about the movie The same movie
Ek hafta, do hafta, teen hafta, chaar hafta, cheh mahina
Ek saal, do saal, teen saal, paanch saal, cheh saal
You're still thinking about the same movie
Uhmmm I think she was that movie in my life
Jo ki main dekhta hi reh gya aur kabhi bhula ni paaya
Mujhe aisa lagta hai ki jab aap kisi se
Genuinely kuch poochna chahte ho na
Aur aap chahte ho ki voh genuinely
Sach sach uss baat ka jawaab de
Aur jab aap usse voh poochte ho voh kehta hai ki
Uska answer hota hai ki pta nahi
Toh samajh lena ki answer aapke favour mein nahi hai
Voh bas jisse aapka dil na toote isiliye pta ni bol deta hai
Matlab maine toh maaf kadiya use uski khaatir
Lekin jabse main main nahi rha voh shaks jo main kabhi
Hua karta tha toh jabse main main nahi rha
Aisa lagta hai shayad ki koi aur hi hai jisne use uski
Khushiyon ke liye toh maaf kar diya lekin
Apne baarein mein voh shayad sochna hi bhool gya
It's like jab koi tumhe chhod ke chala jaata haina
Without any reason ya kisi se baat honi bandh ho jaati hai
Matlab jisse tumhari ek time pe bohot baat hua karti thi
Jisse tum ek time pe boht zyada close hua karte the
It's like tumhare andar ek chote se part ki na death ho jaati hai
Matlab jo ki tumhe bhi pta nahi lagta tumhe bhi pta nahi chalta
But eventually it hits boht aage jaake pta lagta hai like and
Matlab you can recover from it but not fully
Ek voh vala dar ni hota like voh vala moment
Jab tumhare dil ko kaafi ajeeb sa lag rha hota hai matlab
Fatt rahi hoti hai jaise jab ni hota jab exam mein mam cheating
Karte waqt pakad leti hain aur saans ruk si jaati hai
Ya jab mam exam ki answer sheet baant rahi hoti hai
Aur tumhara roll number paas aata jaata hai dheere dheere
Dheere dheere mujhe na ab uss insaan ki wajah se almost roz
Aisa feel ho jaata hai like vaisa vala ki ab gya ab gya ab gya
Ab choota ab choota ab choota
It scares me when you go from knowing someone so intently and
Intensely and then all of a sudden it feels like you are
Meeting them for the first time again
And you feel nervous and uncomfortable you don't know
Where to put your body you avoid touch because you know
When the other person will resist it
It will it will make you feel disgusting and embarrased it will
Make me feel lonely and lost it will make me feel that maybe
Maybe no one cares after all it makes me feel like you hate me
And maybe that I am nothing to you
Yaad hai aakhri baar kab roye the
Agar yeh baat sochni pad rahi hai toh boht khushnaseeb ho
Agar kal raat ki hi baat hai toh tum mere boht kareeb ho
Kabhi kabhi aisa lagta hai ki ek cheenti hoon
Jo antariksh mein kho gayi ho
Kabhi kabhi aisa lagta hai ki ek baat hoon jo doosri baat ki
Baat sunke apni hi baaton mein kho kar barbaad ho gayi ho
Kabhi kabhi aisa lagta hi nahi ki mujhe kabhi kabhi aisa kuch
Lagta bhi hai jo kuch bhi mujhe lagta hai
Kal bacche the
Aaj thode bade ho gaye
Parso boodhe ho jaayenge
Hum pe tumhe naraaz karne ke ilzaam mat lagao
Tum kabhi hasna hi nahi chahte the
Hum tumhe kya rulayenge
Hum tumhe kya rulayenge
And you know what?
Sabse zyada gussa bataun kahan aata hai sabse zyada like
It's always the person you least expected from
It's always the person you least expected from
But, vahi baat hain na ki tere dukh tere hi rahenge
Tu chahe isko suna ya usko