(idwt) kms concept

I don't want to kill myself
But if I spend too much time
In my head I'll lose myself
And I don't want to hecking die

My brain is like a computer
With seven thousand tabs open
Close one by one, forget what's done
Wish I could just feel apathy

You can't relate? Oh boy, that's bad
Maybe I need more therapy
But if it didn't make me die
You know that I'd just be smoking

Here's an illusion to "The Kraken"
Cause I need to relate it
Here's imagery: looming monster
My life? It wants to end it

It's metaphor for depression
Wow
I have depression

Here's your disclaimer: I am fine
I've so much to live for
And I'm too scared to kill myself
Cause pain? It kind of hurts

I've knife by bed and my bedspread
Is stained with my own blood
It's two years old, the time is told
But my clock ticketh none

But really, I'm fine
Ms. Swoyer, I'm fine
I wish I lived in Utah
ADHD
Moment because Sammy
Oh boy, what rhymes with Utah?

You've seen enough
My brain is... screwed
And so I'll say "goodbye"
Goodb-