Hell & Tears

You probably thought that I was using you, but at the time I ain't have much to give
I'm not a cop, I'm not pursuing you, so if you leave then go but here's a kiss
They say time gon' always tell, won't hold my breath but I still reminisce
I don't mind walking through hell, it help me dry away these fallen tears

Tried to keep this shit so gangster, talking, spending time and trying to spank you
Don't know if I should hate you or to thank you, you reopened my heart
I told you not to play with it, I begged you
You took it, turned around and said I pranked you

Now you in your feelings, cause I caught you and you tryna make up
But you went too far saying shit that you just made up
Now I'm back focused on paper and doing all the things that even made us
But from love I gotta take me a hiatus

I'm just hoping that you play this and maybe you can save me on your playlist
Maybe even post and tell them I'm your favorite
I don't care if you just lying, shit you did that to me all the time
Where was I going

Damn
That's off topic, nevermind
See shit be on my mind
A Gemini, she evil but she kind

I can't tell whether she love me or it's vibes
See some things do change with time
But I always got your back just like a spine
Got me feeling like I'm Ray because your love done made me blind

You probably thought that I was using you
But at the time I ain't have much to give
I'm not a cop, I'm not pursuing you
So if you leave then go but here's a kiss

They say time gone always tell
Won't hold my breath but I still reminisce
I don't mind walking through hell
It helps me dry away these fallen tears

Maybe it's just low self esteem?
The nails, makeup, lashes and extension?
That's why you get excited for attention?
Happy for a DM or a comment or a mention

But when I compliment your natural beauty you don't listen
Maybe it's the money?
You need to get paid to pay attention?
But shit like that gon' make me feel I'm simping

I don't mind paying for dates or lingerie
Know the difference
But if I got to pay for your respect then forget it
Shit is it the past?

We both can't seem to stay about our feelings
Both of us need to finish what our healing?
Or maybe it's the future
Keep looking at the scars and go to picking

And that feeling of that pain is reminiscent
I know I'm far from perfect
But you ain't finna play me for insane
I know the vibes OK

Bitch I know when I'm getting played or am I insecure
I don't know but that's the way you made me
A rising star so will you shade me or you praise me?
You probably thought that I was using you

But at the time I ain't have much to give
I'm not a cop I'm not pursuing you
So if you leave then go but here's a kiss
They say time gone always tell

Wont hold my breath but I still reminisce
I don't mind walking through hell
It help me dry away these falling tears