Easy Enemy

I'm not afraid to enter
I'm afraid I'll never leave
I don't think I can do it better
I don't think I'm anything much to be

I'm scared of the future
In case it's something I never see
I told my friends I was getting closer
But they know it's not what I mean

I'll starve myself, hurt myself, leave me to decay
You'll soon have someone else
That's what she loved to say

I look right in front of me
I see everything turn to grey
I'm stuck in the exit
But I'm in no one's way

I was never afraid to enter
I was afraid I'd never leave
I couldn't have said it better
I couldn't do make-believe

I'll starve myself, hurt myself, leave me to decay
You'll soon have someone else
That's what she loved to say, to say

If I have to plead
To get myself on my feet
I won't be
Admitting self defeat
Sinking into the deep
No, I won't be
No, I won't be

The tired mystery (leave me to decay)
Your love for misery (leave me to decay)
No, I won't be
Following your dream (leave me to decay)
Your easy enemy (leave me to decay)
No, I won't be