Cyanide Pills.

I've been thinking I'm the problem
Collectively our lungs are laced with cyanide
And I get so depressed when it's autumn
Cause I won't see the sunlight when I close my eyes

And I don't like the darkness when I close my eyes
And I get so stressed out when you're not by my side
What if when I wake up and I'm terrified
Can I call you on the phone or will you press decline

What do I know
Takin a deep breath then i throw my Iphone
Leavin' my mind blown i'm on American idol
Like what can you do
Im a suicidal title
Lookin for survival
Like i need a revival
Get off beat and I start to spiral
Hit rewind and go back to the chorus like its past my prime when its in overtime like

I've been thinking I'm the problem
Collectively our lungs are laced with cyanide
And I get so depressed when it's autumn
Cause I won't see the sunlight when I close my eyes

And I've been thinking I'm the problem
The ecstasy, your love is laced with cyanide
And I get so caught up in ultimatum
Cause I won't be one night so I just improvise

And I think that I may just hide behind my lies
Tell myself I'm fine but terrified to die
And what if when I wake up and you say goodbye
Can you say if it's the last time what's your alibi

What do I know
Takin' a hard look and I need to let go
Leaving to lay low, run away with the title
Like what can you do
I'm a lazy writer
Haven't read my bible
I'm a Samson and Delilah
Get off track and I'm in denial
Intertwined but I just can't ignore us
It's like it's something strong but got the timing wrong like

I've been thinking I'm the problem
Collectively our lungs are laced with cyanide
And I get so depressed when it's autumn
Cause I won't see the sunlight when I close my eyes

And I've been thinking I'm the problem
The ecstasy, your love is laced with cyanide
And I get so caught up in ultimatum
Cause I won't be one night so I just improvise