can't feel a thing

And I still can't feel a thing
Keep on going 'till I can't even think
Too busy so I can't even link
She can get some shoes, but she can't get a ring
'Cause I can't feel a thing when I'm like this
And my heart too fast got me checking my wrist
Take another shot, but I guess I might miss
I don't always write hits

I don't always write hits
Sometimes I don't write at all
Sometimes I just don't know what I'm doing
Got another year of losing
Hope the IRS can write it off
I got a sickness, tryna fight it off
I'm just a witness, I don't have control
That's my excuse if it appears like I don't have a soul
'Cause all those years of driving away, took a toll
So everything they say, I already know
Yeah, everything they say, I already know
Don't say that you been with me from the start
You been with me for a drop, you ain't never seen a low
That's just something only I could see
Was the only thing in focus with ADHD
Never took care of my health 'till I was almost 17
Swear to god those were some days I really couldn't feel a thing

And I still can't feel a thing
Keep on going 'till I can't even think
Too busy so I can't even link
She can get some shoes, but she can't get a ring
'Cause I can't feel a thing when I'm like this
And my heart too fast got me checking my wrist
Take another shot, but I guess I might miss
I don't always write hits

I don't always write hits sometimes I just write this
Staying low to the ground, like I was a flight risk
That's 'cause I can make a choice, but I still might switch
I don't always know what's real, so that's when the lies hit
Yeah that's when the lies hit
Sometimes I be sorry
Sometimes I just blame it on somebody else
Every time, I just don't know to help myself
Many times before, many times before
Many times I pushed people out my life before
Photo in the mirror just to recognize for sure
Closed off even when I'm not behind a door
I get lost in my thoughts, I get lost in a maze
I don't want the streaming money
I just want to be on stage
I just don't wanna be sad at all
Fix that with Adderall
But no matter what, we'll never be the same

Yeah, 'cause I still can't feel a thing
Keep on going 'till I can't even think
Too busy so I can't even link
She can get some shoes, but she can't get a ring
'Cause I can't feel a thing when I'm like this
And my heart too fast got me checking my wrist
Take another shot, but I guess I might miss
I don't always write hits