With Him

I'm only waiting cause I want to
It's only raining if your shoes are wet
It's only painful if it gets to you
It's never practical to be upset

But I am, and that's okay
Cause you're with another man today
I can't be laissez-faire with you right there with him

I never wanted you to see me weak
I wouldn't have the nerve to speak my mind
You wouldn't notice if my face turned red
You wouldn't notice I was dead

But I am, and that's okay
Cause you're with another man today
You'll never know I'm gone as you go on with him

Go on, make a little dream house for your life
Remember all the times we planned for all our little secrets
Now I guess they're yours to keep if you remember them at all

You're only crying cause you have to
You're only crying so they think you really care
It's never painful, never gets to you
It's just another spirit in the air

But I'm not, I'm not okay
The hell I've forged is burning and the ground is scalding hotter by the day on Satan's throne
As you go home with him