The Me I’ve Always Been

With one last glance at cups and plates
I lock the door and turn in place
Hop off the porch, pick up my pack
And promise I ain't comin' back
I gaze up at the milky sky
And breathe out one long weary sigh
Then march in to the forest glen
To find the me I've always been

Through the trees of black and gray
Disgust begins to melt away
Each step leads me away from doubt
And toward a life I've heard about
The road is the longest I'll ever take
A choice I vowed I'd never make
But it's the path where I begin
To find the me I've always been

I stop and turn to see the porch
Where I sat so long and longed for more
Where growing up taught me to lie
And calmly starve the child inside
Where keeping the peace every day
Meant keeping everyone away
And where I used to kneel and pray
And ask God why I was this way
But that was then and this is now
God took my hand and showed me how
He didn't make me by mistake
His trust in me made me more brave
And soon, my heart called out
For all the life I'd gone without
And so I came out in the woods
To gather all the love I could

All the hate I once believed
No longer has a home in me

And though I'm far from journey's end
I'm learning how to be my friend
And God sent me some company
To walk this lonely road with me
The forest doesn't seem so dark
When my hand is held and so's my heart
Love helps me look within
To find the me I've always been

To find the me I've always been