constant agony

(I've felt this way)
(Oh no, I really shouldn't stay)
(I've felt this way)
(Oh no, I really shouldn't stay)

When will all of this end?
When all of my pain will fade away?
When can I say
That I'm happy in my life?

Of all the people, I wouldn't have expected you here
After everything we said, how can we still talk, girl?
This is where I've come so far, ain't happy at all
Every day, I wake up tired, and I just can't go on

All these dead smiles around me saying, "I honestly care"
All these masks being friendly, well, they aren't real
All I dream about is leaving Earth and wake up somewhere else
You don't dream about that 'cause you have a place to stay

Nobody can really understand what I feel like
Why can't you just try to talk to me and explain
That I've never been happy, and that I just cannot be?
Stuck into this phase where a smile can't be seen
Breathing feels so heavy and I can't explain why
Always seeking for a star that'll guide me through the night
Charge me with your fears and I'll try to help you out
But I know you won't come back

When will all of this end?
When all of my pain will fade away?
When can I say
That I'm happy in my life?

If you've known me than you'd know that this is my pain
Can't even try to bear the shit I'm on every single day
I try to cry all the time, so I can vent something out
Not a single tear comes out and it hurts even more
All they want to see is my lifeless body on the floor
With my clothes stained in blood, awful smell when you come
Why can't you understand?
Why can't you really get it?
These people that I talk about are all of my fears

(Oh, I know you should've stayed)
(Oh-oh, I know you should've stayed)
(Oh, I know you should've stayed)
(Oh-oh, I know you should've)