Thoughts At the Altar

I been lost up in that ocean
I been beaten, I been broken
Asking God why was I chosen
My despair might be an omen
I been stuck up in my ways
I been boxin with this pain
Now I'm fighting for a change
This music my saving grace
I been lost up in that ocean
I been beaten, I been broken
Asking God why was I chosen
My despair might be an omen
I been stuck up in my ways
I been boxin with this pain
Now I'm fighting for a change
This music my saving grace

I almost gave up
But I got my second wind
I'm the chosen one, no Anakin
Can't fake the pain, I'm not a mannequin
Cried tears over this shit
Poured my soul on every flip
Turn the 808 into a canvas
To escape what's waiting on campus
I searched for my power like I'm Tariq
Knew this path wasn't meant for the weak
So I worked at it every single week
Once a while, me and my demons meet
All this doubt in my mind
Telling me I wasn't that guy
It got clouded all up inside
Weighed me down whenever I'd write
But I'm not going without a fight
I went thru the dark into my light
Cuz I got that dawg in me, no Phife
I'll make my life a movie like Spike
I just need some resilience
An affirmation that I'm brilliant
Someone lemme know I'm killin it
Cuz sometimes I ain't feelin it

I been lost up in that ocean
I been beaten, I been broken
Asking God why was I chosen
My despair might be an omen
I been stuck up in my ways
I been boxin with this pain
Now I'm fighting for a change
This music my saving grace
I been lost up in that ocean
I been beaten, I been broken
Asking God why was I chosen
My despair might be an omen
I been stuck up in my ways
I been boxin with this pain
Now I'm fighting for a change
This music my saving grace

I done been tired
I been drained
Yet I still go and take aim
Cuz I'm destined to lay claim
To the throne and earn my place
Built for the marathon, not a race
Gotta remember as I keep pace
I'm a star sharing his space
Maintain hope as these dreams I chase
This that motivation music
This momentum I can't lose it
So every day I'm goin stupid
Speaking millions out of the hubris
My own kin might think it's foolish
This what I'm meant to be doing
Finally solved my path, no Rubiks
Going deaf with the jams, Rick Rubin
Soon to be on the marquee like Kubrick
MoCo Maverick, young Mark Cuban
Still a g in this polo going stupid
My whole team, they gotta eat
Like Roddy, I'll get rich feeding the streets
I won't let the doubt get to me
Cuz can't no mortals stop an deity

I been lost up in that ocean
I been beaten, I been broken
Asking God why was I chosen
My despair might be an omen
I been stuck up in my ways
I been boxin with this pain
Now I'm fighting for a change
This music my saving grace
I been lost up in that ocean
I been beaten, I been broken
Asking God why was I chosen
My despair might be an omen
I been stuck up in my ways
I been boxin with this pain
Now I'm fighting for a change
This music my saving grace