All My Life

All my life I struggled with the truth behind my thoughts
Every time they screamed at me I felt like I was lost
I contemplated death so much, I thought that I was gone
Dear God, are you even real, because I need to feel something inside my heart
All this pain I carry, can you spare me, how did I come this far
Is there someone out there that hears my cries, can you help me heel these scars

Days are dreary, my fate is nearing
But im anxious and weary that i wont make it, people sneering
And the reapers veering every corner leering
While my world's ablaze, my pen is searing
Every crumpled page, i just wanna make it in this music shit
So i can justify being that stupid kid
That skipped his homework to watch some music vids
And did a bunch of nuisance shit
My fuse is lit because i just wanna prove I'm it
But thats too far fetched, im too hard-pressed
Superman please remove our stress because I'm too Clark Kent
Im only human and these demons looming and consuming space where the rage is blooming
In the back of my mind, it's confusing, the melody tuning like

All my life I struggled with the truth behind my thoughts
Every time they screamed at me I felt like I was lost
I contemplated death so much, I thought that I was gone
Dear God, are you even real, because I need to feel something inside my heart
All this pain I carry, can you spare me, how did I come this far
Is there someone out there that hears my cries, can you help me heel these scars

They deem I'm worthless but I'd rather be imperfect
And see my purpose and what my reason for earth is
But i got these flaws with unlimited causes
You can't stop the bleeding with a million gauzes
I'm trying to be like the bosses of these 9 to 5s
That make me nauseous, trying to survive
I only count my losses cuz winning's divine
But I'll be a pile of fossils before it has effect on my mind
All this colossal hate from friends that are fake
They often wait to hit you til they need something for you to opinionate
But ain't nowhere in sight when you're scraping crumbs from your dinner plate
And thats fuckin fishy ain't it
When you bend over backwards til your shit is breaking
So keep that sickness waiting
Cuz I'll be damned before it left my vision fading

All my life I struggled with the truth behind my thoughts
Every time they screamed at me I felt like I was lost
I contemplated death so much, I thought that I was gone
Dear God, are you even real, because I need to feel something inside my heart
All this pain I carry, can you spare me, how did I come this far
Is there someone out there that hears my cries, can you help me heel these scars

All this pain I carry, can you spare me, how did I come this far
Is there someone out there that hears my cries, can you help me heel these scars



Credits
Writer(s): Matthew Church
Lyrics powered by www.musixmatch.com

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