Running

I'm running from my demons once again
I'm lying to myself I just pretend
That everything is gonna be okay
I tell myself these lies cuz I don't know what to say

I've been running, running, running, running, running
I've been running towards my death it's a dead end
And I've been lying, lying, lying, lying, lying
I've been lying to myself saying I don't need a friend

Waging war with the enemy
The person in the mirror looking more like a nemesis
Numbing all the pain and the fear like a sedative
I take it to the brain to contain all the negative thoughts
I've been studying the scripture and praying to God
I'm just hoping that he listens whenever I talk
Because I've been afflicted and lately I feel lost
I've been looking for the light in the dark but it's gone
Im running for my life got these demons on my back and I can feel them tracking, watching all my actions
Even when I'm dreaming I try to crack the glass but I'm stuck inside a nightmare
I'm trapped in the madness
I probably need a policy in life insurance
Because I fight all the darkness in the night
This burden has got me slightly nervous
But I ignite endurance
Because I finally wanna feel what's it's like to flourish
When you give the world a smile
But you're treading in the ocean
Autopilot doing all the work steady coasting
A ghost in the machine and you hide what is broken bottled up inside until it triggers an explosion
Now I got this cloud hanging over my head
There's a voice screaming loud, I just wanna lay in bed,
When you're living in a shroud you never know what's next,
I just want to make you proud so I try to do my best
Every time I'm winning and I start to make progress
I feel myself slipping and I start to feel nauseous
I come up with excuses and I tell myself I got this
But I'm back at the beginning and if I'm being honest,
I'm running

I'm running from my demons once again
I'm lying to myself I just pretend
That everything is gonna be okay
I tell myself these lies cuz I don't know what to say

I've been running, running, running, running, running
I've been running towards my death it's a dead end
And I've been lying, lying, lying, lying, lying
I've been lying to myself saying I don't need a friend

Stop for a second get a glimpse of my reflection, I'm afraid I need a priest or a deacon or a reverend cuz the man looking back at me's not me at all, a hollow shell of a monster hoping I might fall. Yeah
Been running for my life for years, grab the mic, grip it tight and try to fight the tears
Cuz in order to to achieve this, you've gotta tap into a version of yourself that they must believe in
Even though sometimes it's a big facade, I got the people fearing me like I'm General Zod
But I used to be like Clark Kent, until the people that I trusted burned bridges now I feel a little hellbent
So now, what's left for me?
Got me running from my problems like my destiny, is to end up back where I started again, no trust and my money is my only friend
Yeah, in a way I guess the evil always wins, got me drowning in my sorrows while I'm keeping up a grin, Ha, if only they could see, that the man in the mirror got control of me
Cuz I feel a little less human every single day, and I pray that I'll be happy but I'm ending up the same
If this doesn't start to change, I don't know if I can stay Probably end up in a casket with a hole inside my brain
Hello, there he is again, hoping that I lose it all, so he can finally win
But I'm fighting on the daily, heaven come and save me, the devils got ahold and I now I feel my heart decaying

I'm running from my demons once again
I'm lying to myself I just pretend
That everything is gonna be okay
I tell myself these lies cuz I don't know what to say

I've been running, running, running, running, running
I've been running towards my death it's a dead end
And I've been lying, lying, lying, lying, lying
I've been lying to myself saying I don't need a friend
I've been running, running, running, running, running
I've been running towards my death it's a dead end
And I've been lying, lying, lying, lying, lying
I've been lying to myself saying I don't need a friend



Credits
Writer(s): Cody Pringle
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