spite (voice memo)

Wash up on the shoreline,
Lure me in then choke me out
Kiss me like you do those sailors
Who they write all those songs about
Wake me from a nightmare
To another dream i hope
Kick the soap box that i'm perched on
Then give me ten more feet of rope
And you can fake it if they ask my name
Take the credit, i would do the same

I know you love me like a brother,
That archetypal kind of care
Don't ask me why i point my life in your direction
When you're the only one
who seems to want me there

Break me with your bare hands,
Scatter my pieces on the path
From this home right to your next one
So you can find your own way back
You'll still follow all my breadcrumbs,
You'll still tread on sacred ground
You might forget your empty promises
But the stars still know we're bound
Because i occupy the air you breathe
And i'm living when you remember me

I think I love you like a mother
Not with open arms, but open hands
I wanna need you,
I wanna feed you like an ego
I wanna turn you into who i think i am

And this stone of hatred in your chest is heavy
But honest, it was there before you ever met me
I held it for a while, then i grew one of my one
Guess that's the price i pay to not be alone

I think we both will live forever
If just to ruin each others lives
Because you're heaven and you're hell
You're the last wish at the well
And I'll love you even if I don't do it right
And i'll love you til my only reason's spite
yeah, i love you and my only reason's spite