Social Anxiety

Im dealing with social anxiety
It fucks with my mind and my sobriety
Everyone hates me there tryin to lie to me
Exit this life and ill do it quietly
Different thoughts in my head i guess u can say a variety
All of them bad none of them good
I dont fit it in with society
Depression adhd n anxiety
Tried talking to god but the devil replied to me
Ugliness lingers inside of me
Dad i apologize still wanna die after all that u did to provide for me
When they hear that i passed they'll probably be thinking finally
They told me that everyones life gets hard
Oh god the irony 2x
They don't understand
U couldnt count my suicidal thoughts on 10 different hands
Yk ur fucked up in ur mind when ur 12 years old online
Searching reasons to live, cus u wanna die
Men shouldnt cry, so ask me whats wrong n ill tell u im fine
U wouldnt care regardless
Pass me the blunt id rather get high
(Rather be high everyday then deal with this pain,
like oooh)
Im dealing with social anxiety
It fucks with my mind and my sobriety
Everyone hates me there tryin to lie to me
Exit this life and ill do it quietly
Different thoughts in my head i guess u can say a variety
All of them bad none of them good
I dont fit it in with society
Depression adhd n anxiety
Do u no what its like thinking everyones staring at u all the time
But only because ur burden annoying and a waste of there time
Cant talk to them sober i feel like they hate me
So I gotta be high all the time
I get mad around to many people, im staying inside
Just let me hide just let me
I dont care what u think but im scared of ur judgement
It can only make sense if u enter my mind
One of a kind but in the worst way
God when i die dont send me back
If theres an option im pressing decline
I get attached even to friends cus im scared that they'll leave
Ill say it again
Im dealing with social anxiety
(And lately im so trapped up inside my mind,
Idk what to do i just wanna)
(Leave me alone 2x
Why am I here God, just let me go)



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