Lost Myself

You stay
On my Mind
Everyday
Every night you do

You stay
On my mind
Everyday and every night
The day you left me here the day I lost myself

Gotta count my steps and never hold my breathe
For a hand to come out the sky and ask me do I need help
They act surprised that I survived they looking like I seen death
I need a magnifying glass because I been tryna find myself

My whole life a acting class
Cuz I don't know who really real
I got some fam that left to fast
Still thankful for the ones that's here

Stuck in that jam I had a daughter
I ain't sign her birth certificate but still
Imma father tryna go further gotta think smarter
And work harder I'm from the bottom

It's hard not to get caught up
When you born inside of poverty
I come from a block
Where all them white folks buying property

I was locked up for assault
I got that call my mama died on me
Can't even tell you all these thoughts that's on my mind
They might indict a nikka

Stuck in that cell I watched em walk right out my life
Ain't even write a nikka
I keep this glizzy in my right
I pray to god they keep it righteous with me

Everyday I feel alone
Got so many dead and gone
Hope the day god call me home
That you waiting right there

To start right back where we left off
Swear I got tears in my eyes
I got family in the sky that I been missing for a while now
I swear I'm still tryna find that guy looking in the mirror

Cuz he been missing for a while now
How can I find myself when they been writing history for him
Swear I been lost since birth
I finally found the direction I'm going

I finally found a way to get out these expressions that's flowing
God keep taking all my fam away
I'm second guessing his love
Like why you do that to me

Like why you leave me here
Like why you take baba from me
That shid wasn't even real
I swear sometimes I wanna pick my gun up and go do a drill

Wish I can rewind back to when I was young
And tell myself to chill
Now I'm lost inside a system

I hate that drugs done took a hold of a couple of my family members
But them same drug done got a couple of my patnas a lil richer
Them same drugs to cope with all of my problems without prescriptions
I'm tryna make it to the top without the killing

I'm tryna make it to the top without the dealing
I'm tryna make it to the top and get a milli
I told god soon as he see to tell you that I got the family
The day you left me here the day I lost myself

Gotta count my steps and never hold my breathe
For a hand to come out the sky and ask me do I need help
They act surprised that I survived they looking like I seen death
I need a magnifying glass because I been tryna find myself

My whole life a acting class
Cuz I don't know who really real
I got some fam that left to fast
Still thankful for the ones that's here

Stuck in that jam I had a daughter
I ain't sign her birth certificate but still
All on my mind
Every night

And everyday you do
You stay all on my mind
Everyday and every night, and every night you do
Lately I been tryna find myself you dig

I been lost inside a system
Lost inside a wicked world
That's hard for me to live in
Because it's made for me to lose

But you know Imma prosper through whatever
I'm the biggest
You niggas ain't gone get it cause you can't understand me
F.O.E family over everything long live the family
This shit for us the struggle for unity
Free Big Foo