A Price I Have To Pay

I don't know if I'm coming back this time
I'm gone and I don't know why I lost myself now I'm blind
I can't see a thing when I try I can't say a thing or you'll cry
I can daydream about my life or the thoughts will tell me to die

But what I wanted it to be What I thought that I could see
Wasn't there, it was a dream Then I woke up and tried to scream
I messed up so where's my beam? Of, light that's supposed to rescue me
Close my eyes cause I can't breathe The devil made the god of me

I see the sky when I'm asleep I think I'm dying, help me please
I think my tank is running empty think my hate is taking everything
I think my fate is coming any day My death date I ran from everyday
Like a game I'm trying to play Now there's a price I have to pay

Oh, a price I have to pay Oh, oh
Everyday I wake up shaking Can't get up, my legs are breaking
Where's my lungs? I am not breathing Suffocating on my feelings
Look at all of this damage I can't fix it They took advantage of me

And all that I have been you need me gone, tell me when
They say it's over, I ain't starting Hold my clover it has guarded
Act like a stoner, but promise I'm as clean as I am honest
I see the sky when I'm asleep I think I'm dying, help me please

I think my tank is running empty I think my hate is taking everything think my fate is Coming any day My death date I ran from everyday
Like a game I'm trying to play Now there's a price I have to pay
Oh, a price I have to pay Oh, oh

Everyday I wake up shaking Can't get up, my legs are breaking
Where's my lungs? I am not breathing Suffocating all my feelings