The big chair

Back when I was kid, I used to always look ahead
Dreamed of mastering everything my mind would make appear
I remember vividly visiting my grand parents
Told me that I could sit anywhere except the big chair
That was only for grandpa
Made for the family patriarch
I was barely off pampers but looking up to the rafters
The allure that was born in my heart from that chair that towered
Over me controlling me, made me thirst for great power

Want control
But I still wanna fly
To be grown
But never die
Wear the crown
Without the trials
Yeah
What it gotta take to be that guy?
I've always seen the throne in my eyes, that's why
And when I sit at home man just fantasise
Coz when I be alone, think of old passed time
I wanna be free and dodge life's snares
Allowed to be me and hold all the keys
I want the big chair
Yeah, I want the big chair

I was the only son of their only son
So in due time, power was gon' come
But the draw of the chair pulled me like the sun
And so my life would revolve around it til my kingdom come
I sought it all day from associations to school hallways
And in the broad day, the dark power that lights pathways
I want it all, the kind that makes the hearts of men salty
And moves armies, makes the Kings of this world call me
Knowledge is power and knowledge is light
So if I know the most, I can do what is right
But after all my growth, I know there's more to life
But I'd be lying if I said that it ain't in my sights, right?

Want control
But I still wanna fly
To be grown
But never die
Wear the crown
Without the trials
Yeah
What it gotta take to be that guy?
I've always seen the throne in my eyes, that's why
And when I sit at home man just fantasise
Coz when I be alone, think of old passed time
I wanna be free and dodge life's snares
Allowed to be me and hold all the keys
I want the big chair
Yeah, I want the big chair

This desire like blank ink, permeated through me
But I ain't no dummy, no the darkness of the heart can't fool me
Always on guard for the secret lies told by Lucy
And juicy Suzy's tryna steer me out the way to use me
And so I developed the fetish for freakish control
Obsessed with aesthetic I try to use it, reach my goals
The devilish glint I have stuck inside my eyes
Ironically led me down a path paved with many lies
And so here I stand, in the middle of it all conflicted
I know with growth comes a dream from the Lord, my mission
Am I Cooking in hell's kitchen, am I aware?
Is the glint that's in my eyes really the big chair?

Want control
But I still wanna fly
To be grown
But never die
Wear the crown
Without the trials
Yeah
What it gotta take to be that guy?
I've always seen the throne in my eyes, that's why
And when I sit at home man just fantasise
Coz when I be alone, think of old passed time
I wanna be free and dodge life's snares
Allowed to be me and hold all the keys
I want the big chair
Yeah, I want the big chair