All Those Things

Starve the ego, Feed the soul

All those things I never wanted to be
Who am I who is me
Is this what I was born to be?
I hope not

All of those things that I never wanted to be
Thinking about it incessantly and incredibly
Indubitably and intrusively, these thoughts keep interluding me
How crude of me, how rude of me, when I go poof you see
Its no use for me, stupidly, I keep refusing the, keep reusing the
Brutally, yet beautifully crafted jewelry that broach that she
Gave to me, its saving me from this hell I see I created three
So there's room for you, room for 2 more
Open up the door, I'm broken on the floor
Till I wrote it all down, now I'm ready for war

All those things I never wanted to be
They're taking control, jumping on me and they're plundering
They're making it worse, disrupting corrupting me
They're creating a curse, leaving me stumped and wondering

Thunder in my mind, I think of her all the time
Hide it under my shine but my oh my I guess that I
Got on my façade, think I'm hydra prolly not
But I can pretend, magically I don't have to be
Dastardly and ravenously it might be blasphemy
But I'm hungry and gluttonous I know I'm not perfect

All the little things they slowly eat away
A fifth of whiskey a day keeps the demons at bay
I might seem okay but that's just another way
A casino game is all that my life became

All those things I never wanted to be
They're taking control, jumping on me and they're plundering
They're making it worse, disrupting corrupting me
They're creating a curse, leaving me stumped and wondering

But maybe I'm not so wise, I need correction
Never compromise, even in the face of Armageddon

This is not what I had pictured
It's all held together by tinctures
Splinters and staples, we make ripples not craters
What I'm saying is I'm simply a little bit unstable
Take the table, made of maple, shake it bake it and ill recreate it
It's so belated but its all related, you really hate it
But that's quite an understatement
Now I'm jaded, faded, decimated
All for the sake of my desecration
My official mission statement

Made for greatness, waived my patience
Paved my own way, created my own lane
No stepping stones, an eye for an eye, a soul for a soul
You know how it goes

But even if I created an empire
All the little still at me feet
Waiting, watching, admiring
Waiting there for me to fall down

All those things I never wanted to be
They're taking control, jumping on me and they're plundering
They're making it worse, disrupting corrupting me
They're creating a curse, leaving me stumped and wondering

They're eating me alive inside, I don't know why
Maybe its my time die, looking through my wretched eyes
Decrepit lies, internalized until I decided I
Can overcome anything that gets in my way, just another day
No, you cant bring me down

All those things I never wanted to be
They're taking control, jumping on me and they're plundering
They're making it worse, disrupting corrupting me
They're creating a curse, leaving me stumped and wondering