A Terrible Time for Justin Long (Demo)

I seem to have so much resistance
When I'm faced with an invitation
That I often refuse
Cause I just want to keep my distance
My first instinct is to make an excuse
Leave the interaction, it's my moment to diffuse
What I'm holding in my chest
It's a real chaotic mess

I'm not feeling okay
I've been piecing it together
Trying to make sense of it all
I think I'm going insane
There's something inside that's driving me to fly by wire
And you were the catalyst
Yeah, you flipped the switch
And I'm done being lead astray
No matter the cost, I'll be better off

Shedding friends like a snake skin
Pretend that it won't hurt when it happens again
Who am I trying to kid?
I can't sustain this false pretense of me
Being comfortable with the reason for my emptiness

Waking up I'm disconnected
Picking up the broken pieces
Reassembling
What I used to be

I'm not feeling okay
I've been piecing it together
Trying to make sense of it all
I think I'm going insane
There's something inside that's driving me to fly by wire
And you were the catalyst
Yeah, you flipped the switch
And I'm done being lead astray
No matter the cost, I'll be better off

I'm trying to change
Though it feels so strange
Against my better judgment
I'm making my way back
To you