God's Favor

I mean, It's times I feel like I got all the favor in the world
And then there's other times where I'm just like, do he even hear me

It's just certain feelings you can't recreate
That ain't my heart beating that just some 808s
5'6 I'm 150, but I'm heavyweight
I had to drop some dead weight, now I'm in better shape, don't feel a way
It ain't no prize for being a real nigga
Afraid to leave home base then you just babysitting
Letting your dreams die is just a death sentence
Don't give up on your goal, you could be fourth and inches
I think I'm better off if I stop reminiscing
I start to think about my past and I get in my feelings
I had hope for certain ones, but they ain't see the vision
Was in the same lane, now we having head-on collisions
I experienced the greatest pain
To have your loved ones hate you and it never change
Cry out, but they ignore you, it make you feel deranged
Luckily I was never sane

And plus, I got God's favor
Yeah
Sometimes I feel like I'm God's favorite
Yeah
But then it's times I take a loss, I feel so lost and I feel devastated

Open the door to get fresh air and I still can't breathe
This God forsaken city, it'll bring you to your knees
West End and Collegeville made I'm a different breed
Got to have royal blood, I'm the seed of a queen
Don't care what you say, your actions so revealing
No I'm not a hero, I can't save them I'm a villain
Overlook me cause I'm small, guess you tried to kill my spirit
But when I'm the smallest in the room, only time I feel the biggest
Watch what you say to me
Graduated got my cap and gown from hard knocks
Real rare, I'm authentic like I'm dead stock
I was down but felt that willpower like Chris Rock
Joy comes in the morning, I'll be okay
I almost lost my faith like I was Stevie J
No problem being alone cause I know I'm chose
I need all my real ones here to never fold
They don't hit my phone and give me motivation
They never hit my line and say congratulations
They won't say it to my face but I know they hatin'
Stupid looks on all they faces, they can't even fake it
Lord, thank you for protecting me, they down here raising hell
I thought you sent an angel but she was a bat outta hell
Auntie asked me if she riding for me, man I can't even tell
But baby girl so bad, I know they'd deny her bail
I done died like a thousand times
Committing to everything except suicide
I'm do or die, I'm a Gemini, I'm like Dr. Jekyll, Flxme like Mr. Hyde
Would've thought my feet was glued cause I been ten toes this whole time
Fuck what they told you cause I know they lied
Apologies are owed but they got too much pride
They want me to settle, I can't compromise
Those who don't support your name is memorized
People see my songs and don't support then see me and wanna play friends
I'ma play along cause when I'm gone, we won't speak again
When I do get on, they gon' say that we was next to Ken
Told them that I'm special, they just doubt me
All I do is grin, cause I got God's favor

It's just certain feelings you can't recreate
That ain't my heart beatin', that's just some 808s
5'6 I'm 150 but I'm heavyweight
I had to drop some dead weight, now I'm in better shape, don't feel a way
It ain't no prize for being a real nigga
Afraid to leave home base then you just babysitting
Letting your dreams die, it's just a death sentence
Don't give up on your goal, you could be fourth and inches
I think I'm better off if I start reminiscing
I start to think about my past and I get in my feelings
I had hope for certain ones but they ain't see the vision
Was in the same lane, now we having head on collisions