You Don't See

And you don't see the things I do when I'm alone away from you
I tried to let you through, you threw it back now I gotta take 2
Everybody trynna get on my back,
Take a walk in my shoes and I know that you'd crack
Another day another rack, Imma spend it make it back
I been fighting for my life, I been smoking out the pack
Back on prescriptions I been having premonitions
See the death in my eyes that I can't disguise
I got blood on my casket, is anyone surprised

I don't wanna be myself today
You know I don't wanna leave but I don't think that I could stay
Do you know what it's like
When you're fighting every night
And they telling you to fold
But you know that you been destined for the life you always wanted
Since the day that you were born
And I gave my heart away now all the pieces getting torn up into
Shreds of all my hopes and fragments of my dreams
I wish I could be the same as being dumb and 17

I really miss the feeling that I had when I was 7
Waking up at 6am to get my pokemon obsession
I wish that I could say that I even had a plan
I just take it as it comes cuz that's who I really am
Back when I was a kid I always wanted to be older
Now that I'm here I can't even stay sober
Tiffany the choker, Baby pull me closer
We can't be forever but that doesn't mean it's over
Come and show me what you mean
When you say that you been missing when you used to be my queen
I got targets on my back
Going up again and everyone I left behind is mad

I don't wanna be myself today
You know I don't wanna leave but I don't think that I could stay
Do you know what it's like
When you're fighting every night
And they telling you to fold
But you know that you been destined for the life you always wanted
Since the day that you were born
And I gave my heart away now all the pieces getting torn up into
Shreds of all my hopes and fragments of my dreams
I wish I could be the same as being dumb and 17

Well maybe I can
Back to being wreckless back to doing what I wanted when I wanted to
Boulders on my back and I hate what this is coming to
Asking me for answers and it's sitting right in front of you
Wishing I was loving you, truthfully I always do
One day I might get it through, you know that it's always you
It's always you that breaks me
Then you put me back together and you tell me that you hate me