Price of a Miracle

Accepting hardships
As the pathway to peace
Taking as he did
This sinful world as it is
Not as I would have it

I haven't wanted to talk about this
I feel like I've been trying
To write this song forever
But I haven't even been able to
Like talk about what happened
I haven't wanted to
Because I know it would change everything
You know like everything
That I've been working for
Everything that I've been trying to fix
Like, there's this one part in the
Serenity Prayer and I hate it
I hate it so much
It says something about accepting
the things you cannot change
But I've never been like that
I've always wanted to change
The things that I cannot accept
And I feel like I'm at a point right now
Where I've done everything I can
I can't change what happened
And I'm so tired of trying to hide something
That I had nothing to do with
That I was just
Circumstantially affected by it
And that I couldn't stop it
I couldn't fix it

How long does hell take
For stealing three lives away
How long will you burn
For all of the pain you gave
I was ten years old
When they wanted to take
My sisters and me away
I was fifteen
Listen to you hit them
In the kitchen
Knowing if I said something
They would split us up
And I lose them
I've done everything
To protect how you're seen
And still you abandoned me

And I've escaped yet once again
And I still can only remember
Half of where I've been
And Christina's still having seizures
Several times a day
And I wonder
Are you why she's made that way

And through all the pain
They're the only reason I stay
I would have already left if I could
But your memories keep me awake
And everybody thinks
That I want this shit
That I want the light and the stage
And you know I did
When I was just a kid
And my shoulders
Didn't have to carry this weight
I go hard for them
So I can get them out
So maybe then they can be saved
It's too late for me
But maybe I can make
This sacrifice worth something
If I can just make it and get them out
If I can just make it
I won't let them down