Dear Diary

(I know you're feeling down, but I can't treat you
Nobody understand what you've been through
And you just wanna get it over and it's your love
It's hard to take a lie, I see it in your shoes)

Oh yeah, so many nights in the dark I've spent
Praying for someone to save my soul
I highly doubt that the man that I pray to is real
But I do it cause I just don't know
Yeah, the woman that brought me in this world is my biggest enemy
I know that she loves me, but her pride's in the way
I gotta say, big mama's partly to blame
If you was here, this shit wouldn't be happening today

Dear diary, I know I ain't wrote you in a minute
And my feelings is guarded, it ain't your business
I feel like venting, you gotta minute
Oh dear diary, diary, diary
Oh, sometimes a thug like me just needs a hug
Oh dear diary, I'm tired of being the shoulder to cry on
But nobody here to release Snubb
Dear diary, oh, dear diary

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Dear diary, diary, diary
Oh, I know I ain't wrote you in a minute
And my feelings is guarded, it ain't your business

But I feel like venting, you gotta minute
Oh dear diary, diary, diary
Oh, oh, oh, oh
Oh, dear diary

Yeah
Alone, alone, alone yet im home
I'm alone, I'm alone
In my lucid fantasy, I never left my throne
Ooh, why does everything I think is gold
I touch, it turns into stone
Ooh, driving down this road, this dark lil winding road
Whipping round in this new biz, mind's out of control
I still got the same two friends, and oh, they must be stupid
Them nightmares is lucid, I promise I'm bout to lose it
This lifestyle I'm living, I promise it's not conducive with us
Sometimes I find myself growing hatred for the tough love you gave me
But on a daily, I promise mama to tell you I love
I did it by myself and made it through
But somehow the devil made it through
Oh, big mama, where are you
I'm going through this hell by myself
This is the perfect time to pick up my phone and call you
Ooh, what's up gangsta
Where are you