Space II

Don't say you miss me

Maybe this is egotistical to ask
But do you think my life will matter will it last
Never think about the future I'm stuck in the past
Maybe I should just sit back and relax
But every time I do I have a panic attack
Depression so severe I just lay on my back
Stare at the stars thinking about the things that I lack
These are memories I can never take back
Why is happiness so hard for me
Why is love so hard to see
Why is joy so hard to achieve
Why are my memories tormenting me
Maybe that's why I need help
But that's not my style
I'll just do it myself
Welcome to this space
The only place I dwell
Where my memories fell

Spaces, places, that I never thought I'd go
Faces they make at me like I am a ghost
Never thought I'd see you, never thought you'd go (go go)
That's just the way it goes

Am I wasting time looking up to the stars
Is all that matters here where we are
Is all that matters what's here what's ours
Can I look past the pain of a broken heart
Now I'm drifting through the galaxies
Blasting past my favorite memories
Through the cosmos I hear melodies
Sung by past me to ruin everything
Why can't I escape from me of the past
None of my remedies can seem to last
All of the memories I thought had passed
Resurface in my mind like broken glass
You broke me down like the rings of Saturn
Dropped my heart on the floor to watch it shatter
The way that you hurt me felt like a pattern
Alone without you did I ever matter?

When I'm floating I feel so alone
Putting up walls like Jericho
Every time I fall you just let me go
I miss when I was with you now I have no home

Stars reflect on my windshield
Heart's broken it's never gonna get healed
Getting lost to the Earth's rotation
Still making my way through the constellations
Somehow I feel times vibration
As the clock ticks inside of my mind
I'm trying to live and I'm trying to find
A way to get Mars into my life
I guess I just don't know what to do
My talents reward is selective to few
And I don't know if I can get through this
Floating through the skies with a pad and a pen
And as the pen touches and I start to realize
Somehow I am alive
I let the pen go and finally
I just enjoy the ride

I-I-I-I don't know why I have all these fears
Maybe I'm just scared of breathing in this atmosphere
Or maybe it's because I can't breathe through all my tears
All I know is you said you love me but you're not here
I've searched the galaxy but have not found love
I'm Slipping Slowly, can you heal me or am I out of luck
You promised me eternity but you gave all of that up
I Fall Apart and lost my heart but was that still not enough