my own thing

I been on
I been on my own
On my own, on my own
Right beside me (on my own)
I've been on my own
On my own, on my own

Even though you're right beside me
I've been on my own (on my own, on my own)
You can try and hide me
I've been on my own (on my own, on my own)

Yeah, think it's about time I do my own thing
Shock everybody on the web, I seen 'em posting
And I can see the haters switching, doing full swings
But I ain't finna pick it up, I let the phone ring

They wanna keep me down, they wanna hold me
But they just getting mad, they can't control me
If you tryna find me, I'm where the throne be
Back In days, It was the gutter they had thrown me, yeah, yeah, yeah

(Even though you're right beside me)
I've been on my own (on my own)
You can try and hide me
I've been on my own (on my own, on my own)
Yeah, yeah

I'm living my life as a lie for the people I love
And it got me feeling the pressure that's holding me down from above
Feeling like no matter the blessing, we ain't getting out of the mud
My homie died In my hands, had to say that It was what It was

It's like my future is blinding, I'm lost In the ocean of options
And they want my success, but not for me, It's just for the optics
I'm exhausted and weary, being honest, I nearly defaulted
To the old me, the cold me, hold me baby, she soft as cotton

I got failure on my conscience
While I'm sailing through a mosh pit
And she's scared she'll be forgotten
All that venom is a toxin

They said that I couldn't accomplish
Tryna act as my accomplice
All this faking got my nauseous
Took my heart and then you lost it

Took my heart and you lost it (yeah, ay)
Took my heart and you lost it (yeah, ay)
I drew the line, don't cross it (yeah, ay)
You decided, you lost it (ay, ay)

They said I couldn't accomplish (yeah, ay)
I ain't got no accomplice (yeah, ay)
All this faking, so nauseating (yeah, ay)
Failure all on my conscience (ay, ay, ay)

Failure all on my conscience
Getting carried through a mosh pit
She's scared she'll be forgotten
All that venom Is a toxin

They said I couldn't accomplish
But I ain't got no accomplice
Failure all on my conscience (alright, alright, listen)
Ay, ay (ay, ay)

I seen the memes, the schemes, the daydreams (alright, alright, okay)
They been tryna manifest (alright, alright, yeah)
I seen the hatred, I'm In the matrix (uh-huh, okay)
Some things you just can't affect (ay, yeah)
I've seen the lie In the truth you been clinging to (uh-huh, okay)
To justify what you been through (uh-huh, yeah)
I seen the sky isn't blue (I say, okay)
It's been dimmer hues, since the last time you swing through (uh-huh, yeah)

Never Intrude, baby In truth (yessir, yessir)
I done missed you, so bad It's embarrassing (yessir, uh-huh)
But If I told you I loved you, the universe would call It heresy (uh-huh, uh-huh, damn)
Give me some clarity, I think both of us needing some therapy (uh-huh)
Needing full transparency (yeah, uh-huh)
Needing full sincerity, real loving is a rarity (yeah, uh-huh)
Real loving voluntarily (yeah)
Real love's involuntarily given (yeah)

The fans love 'em, but they can't touch 'em (uh-huh)
And they can't build solidarity with 'em (uh-huh)
He gon' up, his popularity risen (uh-huh, yeah)
But no one else can really share in the vision (facts)
When I'm alone, I feel the air Is a prison (facts)
Nowhere to bear the wear and tear I've been given (uh-huh)
Nobody care to spare a spare, or share the care

I need repairing, It's apparent, listen (yeah)
Scared to bear it with a parent, they could share it (uh-huh)
Mask on, wear it, just to keep it hidden (uh-huh)
They know that he carry secrets with him (yeah)
But they can't know the struggle deep within him (uh-huh)
And they mean well, but I seen hell (uh-huh)
Everybody tell me how I should be living (yeah, yeah)
But listen

You see
People will do this weird thing
Where they'll look into their past
And tell you your future, is set in stone

Nah
Nah, not me
Uh
See
I'ma do my own thing