Boredom and Regret

Friends and family
All say I mean so much to me
Empty words all falling in my head

The only friend I've ever known here
Breaking off, and settling in
With
People who couldn't care less
Consisting of a couple that makes me feel nauseous
'Cause all my plans are history
She hangs out with them nearly daily
And I'm drowning in a symphony
Of
Boredom and regret
Boredom and regret
I take out all my bad parts on the people that are close to me
I'm starting to think maybe they're right
I'm worthless, no one wants me here
I say this not out of pettiness for once
But out of giving up a five-year-long fight

And I know what they're doing, so don't try to sugarcoat it
I know she's better than I could be
I know he's happy, and he deserves it
So why do I care?
They're just doing what's fair
So I shove down my feelings
With desert until I almost throw up
They're at the public pool laughing
And once again I'm drowning in a symphony of
Boredom and regret
Boredom and regret
And yes, I am selfish
And yes I am fucked
And yes I've made mistakes
And yes I've fucked countless people up
At this point I don't know what's real
And what's self pity
Because people around me
Tell me so much variety
About what exactly is wrong with me
The meds, they never help
I'm manic either way
I wonder why no one wants to be around me
And then complain about my
Boredom and regret
Boredom and regret
Boredom and regret
Boredom and regret
Boredom and regret
I won't shut up about my
Boredom and regret
Boredom and regret
Next year, I lose everything
I've never been so sure of something
So what's the point of anything?
My motivation's nothing

Fuck



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Writer(s): Callum E. Wilsie
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